Early Thursday

I went back to sleep and slept pretty well except for odd dreams.  

When I woke up Ron was having a very bad day for pain.  So bad he screamed and began crying when I put the phone in his hand.  

Some of you may wonder why I don't "do something" for his pain.  I have taken him to countless doctors, had 2 EMG tests done, neurologist, pain specialist, general doctors, chiropractor, CAT scans, MRI, etc.  They all say his back is just wrecked from the accident.  They could possibly do surgery but no promises it would make things better.  At least now he can get to the toilet, and stand.  We are both pretty firm we would like to keep it that way.  

And the last back surgery did not "stick".  The arthritis is just that bad.  He also said back surgery is "Worse than getting run over" unquote.  

So, today, he took his pain pills, some Advil (he can never remember the name), 6 Kratom (there is no way to OD on Kratom), two droppers of CBD oil, he said the taste on that wasn't very bad and he almost didn't need a drink.  We will see if it helps, I left the bottle in there for him.  He is very sensitive to touch and doesn't want the roll-on.  He isn't screaming anymore so hopefully something is working.  

It seems synergistic approach works the best, CBD oil and Kratom with the Advil, for instance.  Roll on with CBD oil internally plus Kratom and Advil.  You get the idea.  Single approaches do not work.  

But he seems a little better now.  He cried when I told him I didn't expect him to work today and immediately lunged for the phone to cancel the trips.  I am not sure if I am going in on my own, later, or whether we both go tomorrow.  

Cleo is next to me on the couch purring and rubbing against me.  I took the crockpot off the heat and will put it in the fridge when it cools.  I will make some rice, later, and put the meat and broth over that.  

I find it funny I hardly ever eat bread and don't even buy it unless I am craving a sandwich.  I also don't eat a lot of potatoes there is a good chance the ones I have may sprout before I serve them all.  But I do like rice as a carb which is why I put the rice pot on my wish list.  I have a rice pot but it is a pain to clean.  

I like the idea of red cookware and will be getting it as needed.  I still haven't figured out what I am doing with the kitchen when I paint it.  

I have medium brown cabinets and fake wood countertops.  I could paint the cabinets but from what I have seen that is a pain.  I could just paint the walls (most likely) but what color?  Front room adjacent is orange and turquoise.  I suppose I could do an orange kitchen although it would kill the resale value.  I don't want to do a turquoise kitchen I am already doing Ron's room in turquoise.  Yellow might be fun but would I get sick of it?  Hard to say.  

I am going to go take a shower.