Showing posts from May, 2016

Chinese nickel

Today found me at work, wrestling with a canister of creamer and a recipient canister that goes in my coffee vending machine.  The transfer wasn't going very well.  I ended up with creamer all over me, the floor, and the canister.  I got "enough" in the canister to serve our needs for a while, though. 

You may not know we put a lot of powders in a coffee vending machine.  French Vanilla.  Creamer.  Sugar.  Hot chocolate.  And ground coffee, of course.  If I don't keep the canisters topped off (and the coffee cups loaded), I will have some very unhappy customers. 

And they talk.  Boy, do they talk. 

When I got home, I had to wash my pants.  I looked as if I'd been rolling in white powder. 

I'm surprised the driver let me in her vehicle. 

I had trouble falling asleep last night.  Do you ever get "that thing" when your bladder feels irritated but not infected?  The only cure, I've found, is to drink a lot of water.  I did that, but then I was …

$2.50 cheesesteak

I woke up around 8 today, did my God Time, and showered.  Still horribly depressed. 

We were (well, I was) going to the pet store to return the unwanted leash and harness.  Ron was going to hang out at Starbucks. 

Our ride was almost an hour late and then took the scenic route.  She said she hadn't seen us in a while so maybe she wanted to talk. 

We got there, walked in (Ron had left the walker at home and hung onto me), and got Ron his drink.  Everyone has "their" drink at Starbucks, except me.  Ron has a skinny vanilla latte with lots of splenda.  He got a 20 ouncer - 3 shots of espresso.  More on that later. 

The Kolache Factory was out of cream cheese, so I settled for bacon and cheese.  They were pretty good but I was really wanting more of a sweet.  I also got a diet soda. 

I went to the store.  I got the refund and shopped a little for cat food.  I bought a can of Blue Wilderness Red Meat feast (I think),and some other items.  I only spent $5. 

I came back t…

Dinner out with Ron

You may wonder how that goes, dinner out with Ron. 

Well, in most cases it involves calling paratransit between 1-3 days before the event and scheduling a trip. 

Tonight, we were daring and called a cab.  The place was only about 2 miles from our home, anyway. 

After about half an hour, a cab showed up.  We got in and rode to our destination, a "Checkers" fast food restaurant.  I had read the menu to Ron, online, and he liked it. 

The driver offered to take us through the drive-through.  **Next time do that**

We got out after paying the man and went inside.  Ron was able to stand up long enough to order (we had left the mobility devices at home). 

We sat down and they got out food to us pretty quickly.  We got the "Baconzilla" combos, which, in my opinion, were better than the Sourdough Jack I usually eat when I'm having bacon. 

I had a waffle cone afterward, and it was good.  I took my medication. 

We called the first driver.  He was out of the area.  R…

Working on a Sunday

A long day today. 

I slept pretty good but #6's infamous outside light did wake me up once.  I assume stray critters are setting it off.  I have to admit, if my cats were outdoor, it would be the perfect revenge, waking me up every time one of my cats went in their yard.  As it is I'm just weary. 

I am so sick of the construction.  It has been going on for weeks.  At least he does start and stop at semi-decent hours.  With one exception, he hasn't parked in my driveway either. 

He would never do that with one of the other neighbors.  I don't know what makes him think it's OK.  We have never, ever, given him permission to park in our driveway. 

Baffled on that.  Why no boundaries, with us?  I couldn't tell you.  He probably couldn't tell you, either. 

My house was flooded, and vacant for 2 years while it was being flipped by first one owner, and then the other.  I can only guess he might have helped out the flippers and that's why he feels a sense o…

No atheists in flood plains

No, we didn't flood.  We didn't come close. 

However, areas north of us got hammered and are suffering pretty badly.  I haven't really watched the news so I don't know how bad, but some areas got about 20 inches of rain. 

Factor in the forecast: 40% chance of rain.  Now they had forecast plenty of rain the day before, but of course it was clear and sunny. 

Ron and I agree, no atheists in a flood plain with the water creeping up to your door.  I shudder to think what my flood insurance rates will be this October. 

I woke up around 8, right about the time #6 let a toddler run around (the construction area!) screaming at the top of her lungs for a while.  I was happy I was already awake.  The light didn't bother me last night, either. 

Then the construction noise started up a couple minutes after that.  I reminded myself they wouldn't always be sawing and hammering, it just felt that way.  Not to mention they are rapidly running out of room to expand. 

The c…

A lot about Torbie's foot.

Last night I realized that #6's new outdoor light does flash in my eyes.  It gets set off when it rains, too. 

It rained.  So it kept flashing on and off.  I finally fell asleep and slept OK.  I woke up feeling pretty refreshed for me. 

We had heavy rains this morning, so the light went on again.  It lit up the bathroom, my room, and Ron's room in particular.  It's literally pointed right at our house. 

I have to wonder why he thought that would be a good idea.  If I weren't talking my Haldol, I'd wonder if he were trying to spy on us. 

However, the realistic part of me realizes he has his hands full running his own business, married, and 6 kids.  It's still just rude, though. 

I guess I can expect them to turn the light on during their parties and light up my bedrooms.  Ugh. I'm trying to see it as I get the use of their electricity.  I can only hope the bulbs burn out and are prohibitively expensive to replace. 

I got up, did my shower and God Time.…

6 foot boards

I'm trying to be philosophical. 

#6, as part of his remodeling and expansion (without either building permit or HOA approval) installed a motion detector light for the backyard.  All well and good, but one of the lights faces into my bedroom and the bathroom.  Probably Ron's room too but I didn't check. 

*It doesn't seem to be waking me up.*  I just wake up periodically (I think we all do) and see the light is on, close my eyes, roll over, and go back to sleep.  The light does not touch my bed or near my head, just the bathroom wall past the foot of the bed. 

But still.  Rude.  REALLY?  HAD to point it at our yard? 

I could understand if we still had the cats free-ranging, he might do it as a passive-aggressive way to get "back" at us for "letting" the cats in his yard, but he put this up a month after I put them on lockdown. 

At the rate he's going, even if he moves out, the next people will just be another large family, lots of screaming …

Depressed, headache day.

My period finally kicked into high gear this morning, to the usual "massacre" levels. 

The estrogen variations caused another nasty headache.  Plus I am pretty depressed.  

I slept in until 8.  I did my God Time and took a shower.  Since I'm always tired lately, I took a nap.  Ron and I went to the Waffle House for dinner in the midst of a lot of traffic. 

Ron and I sat out in the catio for a while until fire ants started biting me.  I need to poison them. 

Other than that, pretty uneventful for a depressed, headache, day.

Raped by Windows 10

Things just haven't been easy lately.  Anxiety, sleep trouble, endless depression, problems with Ron, problems with work, etc.  A mangled, dying, cat.  Not today, thank God, but I still miss him. 

I cried my eyes out over Gravy the other night.  He loved to sleep on my bed and he would have loved the new mattress.  I had a migraine on Sunday, then I started my period, which is still in the spotting stage. 

I think my poor ovaries are about done. 

I am certain menopause is wreaking a special havoc on my brain, as well.  Probably one reason I feel so hopeless lately. 

I really strive to be positive here. 

Anyway, I slept in and got up just in time to take my shower.  I did my God Time later, before I turned on the computer. 

Biscuit was absolutely adorable.  We have a whole routine of frantic begging (his) when I get up and stagger out of bed.  The minute I put on my glasses he goes galloping into the front room, meowing frantically for his num-num. 

I select a victim, get a …

Tow truck

It was a challenging day that almost ended with a call for a tow truck. 

First, I got up late, exhausted from the migraine.  I did my God Time later.  I verified that yes, my cycle had started.  I decided to try using the menstrual cups again.  Just because I had a bad experience last year when the neighbors were having a party doesn't mean it was the cup's fault. 

So far, so good, on that.  I wore a pad for backup, which I didn't need. 

I took my shower and got dressed.  I wore a turquoisy solid tshirt with my capris. 

We went to work.  We had to pick up the Wonder Twins again, severely autistic and poorly-cared for twins of adult age. 

"Is he shitty?  He's walking like he's got a shitty diaper" our driver exclaimed.  "I hope he ain't shitty." 

He wasn't, or if he was I didn't smell it. 

The other one wasn't riding today. 

We got to work and I began stocking.  I found a note in my area of the stockroom.  Occasionally, th…

Days like this

I woke up with a headache. 

I also woke up at 6:30.  I took some OTC headache pills and drank a cold diet soda.  It helped a little.  then I did my God Time and took a shower. 

I got to thinking.  Ron had made a trip to go to the pet store, but he was stingy with the timing.  If it's not something he wants to do, he will try to make the trip as short as possible. 

It was short all right, 20 minutes is not enough time to walk across the huge parking lot and return the leash, get new litter for Baby Girl, a new box, and some Nature's Miracle to clean up the "pooped on" areas of the tile (and, as it turned out later, the carpet). 

I had the time, why didn't I take the bus. 

I had already had 2 diet sodas (150 mg caffeine) and one dose of headache pills (200 mg caffeine).  Doc says keep it under 450, so I had about one more soda "allowance".  I got a bottle of water out of the fridge (we use them mainly for hospitality "Would you like a cold bottl…

Earned it

Today was long. 

I slept really badly last night, too much caffeine yesterday.  I probably exceeded my doctor's suggestion by at least double intake, perhaps triple. 

Yike.  No wonder I couldn't really "go under". 

I got up late, did my shower, and have yet to do my God Time.  We went to the warehouse. 

They were out of Coke Bottles.  I had to wait about half an hour for them to get the pallet down and bring it - but I did appreciate the fact that they did bring it. 

We loaded the truck, they had a new guy - and I headed off to work. 

I was happy I remembered to take my salt tablet this morning, as it was pretty hot and humid today. 

I unloaded the carts, brought them out, and loaded them up again with our new inventory.  Then I brought them inside. 

I was a little irritable, which seemed to magnify Ron's usual bad mood and he was pretty ugly today.  When he said we should just avoid each other, I took the advice. 

I did all of my work and some of his.  …

No dinner photo

I won't put up a photo of my dinner. 

We got there, it was well decorated and wheelchair accessible.  It was pretty quiet, though. 

We ordered.  I got the 3 meat plate.  Since I'd had my lithium hours ago, I had some sausage, turkey, and brisket. 

Ron got a brisket sandwich.  Surprisingly, he didn't make a mess. 

It wasn't bad.  The turkey and sausage were very good.  The brisket was very moist but not terribly smoky.  Ron hated the sauce.  I thought it was pretty good. 

"I like Kraft (sauce)" he said. 

I had potato salad and mashed sweet potatoes.  They were good but unremarkable. 

All in all, I didn't feel ripped off.  I would, however, just get the turkey sandwich and a side next time. 

So, that was dinner. 

Now off to brush my teeth, my gums are bugging me.

These doses

Boring.  I want boring. 

Instead, I have a bad night of sleep, a 2 AM wakeup, and a ride to work with a man watching a podcast from Cameroon, on his cell phone, as he drove us to work. 

Yeah, it was that kind of day, and it's only 3PM. 

I got up with a headache.  I took some aspirin with a mountain dew and that seemed to help.  I don't think I will have to worry about blood clots.  I don't take so much aspirin I worry about bleeding, but I sure don't worry about blood clots.  I take maybe 6 doses a week. 

I did my shower and then my God Time.  Happily, I did not need to shave my legs.  A 4-bladed razor, Mountain Dew, and 2 in the morning are not a good combo! 

God Time went well.  Prayed for everyone, including you. 

If you aren't a friend of Jesus just see it as me "sending out good thoughts to The Universe on your behalf". 

Anyway.  Did that.  Ate one of my much better, new, protein bars.  I am glad I got them.  I took my meds and they didn't…

Beauty brush

This morning I realized I am becoming what I don't like: negative. 

I don't want to turn into Ron.  Admittedly, it's hard, because I am fed a steady diet of negativity, complaints, and pessimism.  It's hard to withstand at times, especially when I am already battling a horrific depression, headache, etc. 

But still. 

I woke up about 1 AM with a headache.  I took the last of my Aspirin and washed it down with some cold diet soda.  That reminds me, I need to put the aspirin into the medicine cabinet.  OK, I did that.  I even took off the safety seal and took out the cotton. 

I am (ha ha) never going to get a blood clot with all the aspirin I take.  Doc approves. 

I got up later and took a painkiller with caffeine, drinking another cold soda.  For whatever reason, it helps to drink something cold and sweet when I am suffering from a headache. 

 I took my shower and did my God Time, still pretty depressed.  I ate a terrible energy bar just to have something onboard.�…

"I should make you get naked for this"

Today I read a comment on Facebook "No one understands what it's like to be tired.  Only parents understand." 

I beg to differ.  I am constantly fatigued.  I wake up exhausted.  I only have energy when I'm manic and that's on top of the exhaustion. 

Not to mention, you chose to be a parent, unless, as Ron thinks, "All kids are 'accidents'".  He can't fathom someone planning a pregnancy unless it's to "trap" someone.  So, when you choose to be a parent, if you're online, you know you are going to be pretty tired a lot of the time.  But, based on what I see in the neighborhood - parents running around with their kids, they can't be all that tired.  At the end of it, they chose to be parents and would not want that taken away from them. 

I, however, did not choose to be ill.  I have to take toxic medication that exhausts me. I keep yawning just writing about this.  I battle horrific, taxing, depressions that wipe me out…

Cool stuff you might want at $20 each

I lost something (it happens) and in the process of searching for it I found my Kindle, with a run down battery.  Not a big deal. 

Why?  Because I have a portable USB charger.  I plugged it in, got the device charged, and it got me thinking about a post on useful stuff you might want.   It can also charge my cell phone and tablet. 

What is it?  A Pocket Juice.  I have that exact one sitting right next to me, charging off my computer.  It runs about $20.  I got mine at Walmart. 

What else?  How about a Stun Gun?  Because life sucks and there are Bad People.  No, I have never used it on Ron, although I've been tempted. 

I have this one, except in purple.  Vipertek stun gun

It has a flashlight in addition to the stun gun, runs about $20.  Happily I have never had to use it, but if it's legal in your area I would get one.  It never hurts to have one around. 

You know I talk about preparedness now and then.  My experience: no one is coming to save you.  You are on your own. 

"You have got to tone it down"

I'm sorry.  Today is going to be difficult. 

First, let me take a moment to be thankful for the good things in my life.  I have a comfortable bed, good storage underneath, a nice little home I love, I live in Houston! The best city ever!, I have good public transit, my illness is pretty well managed (per my doctor, who I am also thankful for), I have a job I excel at, even with my troubles; the depression never lasts forever, I have wonderful cats, they use their boxes and enjoy their food, I'm healthy, and I could go on forever. 

That said, today was difficult.  I drank some milk last night.  Apparently, I am now lactose intolerant, as I dealt with wracking abdominal pains for hours last night - horrible crampings, as I swore I'd eat more fiber and never consume another drop of milk again.  I didn't have any other symptoms so I am certain it was the milk. 

I finally fell asleep.  I did not sleep well and I woke up with a headache.  I took something, missed my God T…

"I already did"

Monday.  I was up half the night with a seriously teed-off bladder.  I managed to overcome that, but I was up half the night drinking glasses of water, then peeing, going back to bed, up again to do same.  Pretty exhausting. 

I woke up at 4 AM oddly energized.  I was a little manic.  Good.  I had a busy day.  I got up, did my God Time, took my meds, ate, took a shower.  So far so good! 

Then the Haldol kicked in and killed the mania.  Booo. 

We went to work.  I reprogrammed the bottled vendor and Ron kissed my hand in gratitude as the customers laughed.  He stocked water in the rows I had just "done".  I got the sandwich delivery and stocked it, made sure snacks would be OK until tomorrow (barely) and went to the warehouse with our driver. 

It was raining.  Of course.  "I don't mind the rain" I told our driver  "I just mind the spots on my glasses."  After all, it was a fairly warm rain. 

The warmest rain I've ever felt is hurricane rain.  It…