Showing posts from March, 2008

Today I did something smart

I've lost a total of 19 pounds in just under 5 weeks. I'm very happy with my weight loss, size loss, and flab loss.

Last night we did some BBQ and it was good! I had "just meat", and made Ron a cheddar burger. He adored it, his only request being the addition of some BBQ sauce. I can't find no-sugar added BBQ sauce anywhere so I will buy the "bad" stuff. I just won't touch it or put it on my food. Easy. It's been very easy to stick to my plan on my medication, even though the pills mess up my stomach occasionaly.

Anyway, Wednesday we are going up to Brenham. The Blue Bell Ice Cream Factory offers tours. They have samples and a cafe or something. Everyone will be indulging, except Heather.

So what do I eat? I love frozen treats, but I want to keep up the weight loss. Dairy gives me migraines. I need some kind of sorbet, a no-sugar added sorbet.

Guess what I found at Randalls today? 1 pint containers of no sugar added sorbet. I got …

I bought a can of fat today

Today was just a wild day. A good day, but a wild one. It started with a sausage patty for breakfast, as usual. I took my morning meds and ran out the door. Halfway to work, I realize I've left my purse at home. I'm feeling very thick-headed and slow. I didn't sleep well last night and had to take a couple of benadryl (our miracle knock-out pill).

What does my purse contain? My ID badge to GET INTO THE BUILDING. My keys so I can DO MY JOB. Most importantly, it has my PILLS. Ron was so awesome, all he said was "I'm just happy you realized it now instead of worrying you left it on the van." What a sweetie! I'm taking breaks here to gnaw on a hamburger patty.

We were supposed to leave work around 9:20. Our ride didn't get there until over an hour an a half late (which was good because Ron needed to stock some last minute items). We finally got to the bank. We were supposed to get home at 12:30, remember this.

At 12:30 PM, we got picked up …

I need a new off day!

I had a busy day for me. Wakeup at 6 something (on my day off!), then eat, no medication, go to the lab for my blood test. We got a straight trip so I sat at Starbucks for half an hour, looking at the things I can't eat. I don't miss them or the way I used to feel.

At about 8:10, I went across the parking lot to the lab. We've used them before, they're good. An older Asian lady drew my blood last time. Today I had several tests. I figured they would cost about $200. They did. The lady who drew my blood this time was excellent, very fast. I think it may have to do with the schools here. In California, it seemed like everyone had trouble taking my blood. Out here in Texas, they're very efficient. Fat arms, skinny arms, they get it done on the first stick. Amazing. I had a bag of pork rinds to eat after my test so I could take my Lithium immediately.

I was finished an hour before our pickup, so we took the bus to Walmart instead of waiting. It was a nic…

The mental health system fails again!

The article's from the Houston Chronicle


Boys thrown off Dallas bridge remain in foster care
Their mother, who's in jail on charges she injured her sons, was turned away from psychiatric care the night before the incident, family says
Associated Press

DALLAS — A judge issued an order Tuesday keeping two boys whose mother is accused of throwing them off a highway overpass in foster care.

Outside the courtroom, new details emerged about their mother's mental decline, with family members saying she was bipolar, off her medication and had been turned away from a psychiatric center the night before the incident near downtown Dallas.

The 8-year-old boy, who was on life support, is in critical condition in the hospital, but is "improving daily," Marissa Gonzales, of Child Protective Services, said. He has a broken a…
It was an odd, odd day. First off, we had to ride an hour out of our way (total) on the way to work. Why? To pick up a guy after his booty call. His very large girlfriend was wearing a "Barely covers it all" nightgown. She opened the door, wearing the nightgown, and gave the client a long passionate kiss as he left.

Ew. I'm sure people think the same thing about me and Ron, but I'm not parading around in revealing clothes, sticking my tongue down his throat either. The guy had a fit because the driver didn't want to take the "client's" route. "I drive this way all the time!" he yelled. Both Ron and I thought simultaneously, "You're not driving now." I mentioned we were the next stop and we had to get to work, while he was going home (he didn't dispute it, proving it was a booty call - home is not where the woman is?). The driver said something to the client in spanish and the client shut up.

We got to work an …

I whine

I started my cycle AND I woke up with a hideous migraine. Apparently, I can't eat sesame oil. It was so delicious, too. I'll see if Mike at work wants it. I'm giving him some collards tomorrow anyway.

I was bad enough that Ron made me stay home. Instead of lasting 12 hours, it only lasted about 7. My phenergan did the trick of knocking me out during the worst of the headache, and I never really got queasy.

It's a nice day that I don't really get to enjoy. When I woke up, I weighed myself (for fun), and I was down a pound. When I discovered my cycle had started I knew why.

I don't have much appetite but I ate some green beans, took my pills, took my painkillers, and took my ginger root to help with cramps and keep me from getting sick (from all the pills). Ugh. Tomorrow will be better.

Man's Best Friend

I like the fact that I'm capable of change. I love the fact that I reverse bad choices and snap judgements, if the facts warrant a change of heart.

I'm talking about the neighbor's dog. He lives behind me. When he first moved in, he barked all the time and I couldn't stand him, but after a week he settled down. I started giving him "quiet treats" - he'd be quiet for a while, I'd praise him and give him a treat. Pretty soon he didn't bark at us at all. Ron brought up a good point, he's our guard dog too. No one's coming over the back fence with him in their yard.

Plus, I got a look at him and he's so ugly he's cute. Obviously the people have him because they love him.

Ron and I have a nice routine now. If we're both in the backyard and the dog is quiet, we'll give him a treat. He loves the routine. When I start clicking my tongue, he sits by the fence. When we see each other, he gets up, tail wagging. He's n…

Why did I get up this morning?

I'd like to think I am a loving, understanding person right now. I'm not even angry, I'm just a little hurt and disappointed.

Let me tell you about my day. I woke up at 6 AM to go to work. We were supposed to finish at 12. It looked like a pretty good day. We had a very nice driver and even though I ran out of driver candy she didn't mind.

We got to work. I'm doing snacks, I help Ron. He left his cart in an odd place and kept asking me where it was. I told him nicely every time. I help him with sodas. Right about the time I should be doing crackers Ron asks me to put the creamer in the coffee vending machine. It's a very fine powder and he always ends up filthy when he does it.

We have an API 223 coffee machine. It is an excellent machine. It has about 8 various bins. Each bin holds a different coffee powder or complement (cream and sugar). Certain items have to go in certain containers - for one, it's programmed that way. They also have s…

It bears repeating.

I posted this on a message board to a woman who wanted advice "Keep me from cheating on my diet!"

This was my reply. I like it so much I'm putting it here too (WOE means, way of eating which is preferable to the word diet).

"You are not a bad person because you are overweight. You made bad choices. Eating the way you have has made you unhappy and miserable.

Remind yourself of this: Yes, I could eat this but it will just make me unhappy in the long run. I will hate myself, feel bad physically, and get even heavier. I deserve to eat something helpful instead.

You have to look at why you are doing it as well. To fit into those jeans? To get someone (Dr, husband, freind) off your back? Because you don't want to shop in the women's department (anymore?). There aren't any bad reasons to start, just remember the main one. You should remember first and foremost, you are doing this for your health. If you set deadlines, if you see yourself as a bad person, if you d…


Overall, I had a great day. I went to work, helped Ron, went to the nice grocery store, and got more proscuttio (sp) and some smoked salmon. I rolled them up together, they were as delicious as I'd dreamed and then some. We had 3 great drivers and 2 great rides today. Metrolift may have rejected me, but I get a disabled bus pass at 50% off. Not bad. Even though it's spring break, I was still able to get my nap when I got home today. I lost 2 pounds, too. I assume it's PMS water weight.

I think I may have picked up a rotavirus or something. Ugh. I still have an appetite, no nausea, but the cramps, chills, and other have been pretty uncomfortable. I must have run to the bathroom over half a dozen times with the symptoms. However, I can still eat.

Speaking of uncomfortable, we had a horrible ride. When we got in, the client was sitting in the front seat. Her "man" was sitting in the backseat. Like us, he was about 20 years older than her. We have r…

Metrolift said no to me

Today was an odd one. I had trouble sleeping last night, and woke up manic. I didn't want to pick fights, spend money, or anything but God, I wanted to talk! Poor Ron. Poor Metrolift driver.

Speaking of, Metrolift denied my application. I'll just keep riding with Ron then.

Anyway, we got to work, filled them up. I wanted to make sure that we had plenty of good food if the threatened severe weather arrived. No one wants to go out in the rain, they'd rather hit the vending machines instead.

It was windy and overcast but no severe weather yet. I'm still up a couple of pounds, but I figure when my cycle starts that'll all balance out.

I had an odd experience yesterday. Ron and I caught our ride. The driver mentioned I looked better, what was I doing? I have lost most of the "jowly" and the double chin, which makes me happy. I don't care so much about my butt as long as my face looks good. After all, people look at my face. I want them lookin…

This is a symptom

Last night I had a mini-meltdown while mowing the grass. I just started sobbing over nothing while Ron was out there doing something to the mower. UGH. Sometimes I hate this disease. I had to remind myself, I am not a weak person. I have an illness. This is a symptom. You can be certain I took my extra Lithium last night.

It got even more exciting when Ron rolled the mower through the house while putting it away. I had lovely grass tracks all over my tile floor. Agh. He was helping, though, so I didn't yell at him. I just asked him to please never do that again. Nicely, even.

When I woke up, he told me he'd accidentally spilled bacon grease on the kitchen floor (he'd made us both bacon) and he "Couldn't get it all up". Thank God for my pills. I almost slipped a few times but I didn't have enough time to mop. I put my mop bucket over the worst of it so I couldn't slip again.

Now I had bacon grease and grass stains all over the tile. Tim…

The third element

I've noticed I'm a little too energetic lately. I've been talking more and having terrible, vivid, nightmares. If I hadn't spent this week's budget I'd probably be spending it now, too.

Thank God for lithium. I've gone up to 4 lithium a day (breakfast, lunch, and 2 for dinner) as of yesterday. In a few days I'll be back to me.

Thanks to low-carb, I don't have any side effects either. I thank God every day I have lithium (the third element on the periodic table). I can have a normal life.

The battle of the bowl - I clean a toilet

I've been fighting with the hard water stains in my toilet bowl. I couldn't bend over without dizzy spells, so it was fairly grim. It was clean, but it had the mineral stains. I can't have icky hard water stains in the bowl when Mom and Dad come to visit!

Since starting a low-carb lifestyle, the dizzy spells and other symptoms have gone away. I can finally get in there with my pumice stone and haul on those stains. A few weeks ago, I drained all the water out, applied the Clorox toilet bowl cleaner, and let it sit. Ron forgot I was cleaning the toilet and flushed it, so I wrote off that episode. The minerals were still solidly affixed.

Take 2, this morning. I woke up and I knew Ron wouldn't be up for hours. I did the same thing, drained the water, Clorox toilet bowl cleaner. A couple hours later I went after it with my pumice stone. I was able to get 90% of the minerals off. Thank God, most of it looks great now. But the back part, above the hole, is still…

I talk about shoes

I've had this question for a long time. It plagues me every time I see it and I always want to put it in my blog.

Why, in God's name, would a woman wear high heels to Walmart?

Yay. My furniture just arrived. Ron and I can assemble it when he gets home.

Back to the heels. I don't get it. They are painful. They ruin your feet. Why?

I like the suggestion I got from a Nigerian cab driver. He told me he could tell I was happily married. "Oh, how?" "You are wearing comfortable shoes." he replied in his beautiful accent "The women who are trying to catch a man always wear the painful shoes. The women who are happy with the man they've got wear comfortable, practical shoes."

That theory makes as much sense as anything. I thank God every day I work for a man who doesn't care that I wear sneakers to work. I have to wear a men's size 9 W to avoid pain. NO, I don't have anything weird on my feet, I just have broad feet. Th…

Reader Discretion advised - disgusting images

Don't eat before you read this. It's pretty awful. No, I won't give you a visual of me, naked, first thing in the morning on the scale. :)

It was funny this morning when I weighed myself. I checked the scale - 216. I was so tired I couldn't remember if that was a good thing. :rofl: I had to check my little notebook. Then I said, YAY! I'm down a pound and a half. I even lost a quarter inch off my waist and my period is due in just a few days. Amazing. I'm doing exactly what I need to be doing.

As you know by now, we ride the paratransit service. Work is somewhat near a terrible public housing project with an awful reputation. One of my pivotal images, whenever I consider cheating, is this:
The "client" of the service used a power wheelchair. She is extremely obese, at least 400 pounds or so. She is wheezing from the effort of pushing the joystick on her wheelchair. If she were standing up she would be about five feet tall. She can't…

How is it funny?

Why is it funny for postal workers, who gross about 3 times what we do combined, to grab at merchandise on my husband's cart and make "jokes" about stealing it? It must have happened at least 5 times while I was present. They found it hysterical. We didn't.

They actually SEE my husband, blind, barely able to work since his stroke, half-paralyzed on one side of his body, useless right arm, laboring away to fill the machines and they think it's OK to steal from him? One guy actually told Ron he HAD stolen something off the cart, ha ha ha. How is that funny? I robbed a blind cripple, ha ha ha. I'm going to hell for breaking the 7th commandment, too. That's even funnier.

Or they ask if we have anything free today. I say, no. We had to pay for it, sorry, so do you. The people who do get the free stuff don't ask for it. I give to them because they are good people and they don't care if it's a day or so out of code.

I don't get it. I…

Lead us not into temptation...

My parents are coming to visit. I only have one "good" chair in the living room. I decided to get a matching loveseat to go with it (the Lillberg) at IKEA. I thought, it'll be OK. Sure, I commited some awful food sins in the cafeteria but I'll be fine, they have breakfast.

My husband and I use the paratransit service, the "short bus" to get around. No big deal, right? Well, they came half an hour early (we were ready though) and we had a straight trip. That meant we got there an hour before the store opened.

I had brought drinks in my big canvas tote bag, so I just opened one. We waited and waited some more. I told my husband about the bottle vending machines IKEA has installed (I bet they make some good cash off of those bad boys). I even read him the product selection. How funny, IKEA has a Pepsi contract and we work with Dr Pepper.

By the time the store opened, I was starving. I ran upstairs. Ron needed to use the bathroom. OK. He comes out. …

I'm a monster

I am a monster, a heartless tyrant undeserving of the love I've been giving. I don't know why he forgave me but he did.

Frosty the kitty likes to sleep in the laundry room. For such a small place (maybe 18 square feet), he's found several good sleepy spots. This morning I left the washer open and dirty clothes inside. I hadn't run the load yet. I do this fairly often. Once I caught Bubba-cat sleeping in the washer, with the lid open.

When I came home hours later, with my new tshirts, I shut the lid to the washer and placed the bag of tshirts on top. Hours later, I decided to wash them. I opened the door to the laundry room.


What was that, I wondered. Hm. I heard it again.


Where's Frosty? That's his meow but I don't see him. Huh. I called his name.


I looked all over and couldn't find him. The meowing seemed to be emanating from the washer. I opened it up and there he was. I'd locked the poor baby in the washer for hours!…

Virtue is rewarded

I woke up a half-pound "heavier" but my waist is back down 1/4 inch. I'm happy. I was even happier when I measured under my ribcage and I'd lost 3 inches of flab. Yeah!

I'm not eating enough vegetables, so I had a salad with my breakfast. It went fine. I had a nice big breakfast, and off to work. Ron said I was "A big help" which I love to hear. We got the milk and I was busy! I wore a pedometer to work today and just at work I logged over 5,000 steps.

After work we went to the bank and I got paid! Coolness. We walked (!) to the mall and I de-carbed a Wendy's hamburger. Ron's in mainenance so he got chili with a saltine cracker crumbled up. Me, I think ew but he loves it.

I was able to resist all the sugary "treats" at the mall, and went to Footlocker. I found AWESOME 100% cotton tshirts at 5 for $20. They had turquoise! I adore turquiose. I know I misspelled it. Anyway, it made my day, cute new tshirts. It's a g…

A nice Monday

I had a very productive day yesterday. I cleaned up the living room and bedroom, and rewarded myself with a nice hot bath. For the first time in years, I didn't have to worry about overheating. I felt great, relaxed only. Ahhh. I love low-carb living. Ron was thrilled. He "loves what I've done with the place". I even got together a giveaway bag with my old fat clothes to give away. I figure I can walk over to the drop box (about a mile away) and drop them off, get a diet soda, and walk home. It's a good half hour workout.

I had a nice Monday. I had to get up at 5 something, and go to work. I took a big tote bag full of books to give away. I'd made myself a good breakfast, 2 sausage patties (they are fast and I like them). I misplaced the book I was reading but I'll try to find it later. I was able to give my shrimp to the other blind vendor. I hate to throw it out but I won't be eating it again. One migraine is enough for me.

I met th…

Happy Saturday

Yay! I woke up, weighed, and measured. I was down to 219.5! I had to check it twice. That means, I'm down 8 pounds in less than 2 weeks. It got better. Measuring time - I'm down a quarter of an inch to 40 inches! My goal of course is a 30 inch waist and a weight around 145 pounds.

That was awesome. I ate my sausage patty, took my pills, and went to the Super Walmart. I found a cute red pepper plant that I really liked, so I got it. I chatted with a few nice people while I was there and had a good time. I got another grow light an a tray for seedlings.

Off to the food department! I took the plunge and bought the 3-pound carne picada beef. It is very thin sliced strips of beef. You saute them. It's tasty, and it had some fat onboard so I know it's "balanced" for me. My biggest problems on this food plan are getting enough fat and remembering to spread out my vegetable intake (not to mention, eating the veggies). I got some more salad mix, mayo,…

Yes? No? Or wait?

Today, my "Day Off" was supposed to be relaxing. I'd just get that Metrolift business out of the way first and then...

I woke up at 4 AM, to be told by Ron they'd rescheduled my trip. My new pickup was 7:30. I went back to sleep until 6 or so, but I had nightmares about broken scales and such. Not enough to make me think I have to go up on my pills, but enough to let me know my nerves were showing.

I got up and packed a snack. I ended up eating a sausage patty, 1.5 scrambled eggs, and a hamburger patty. That held me for hours. I also drank an insane amount of diet soda. I got picked up and we rode around for an hour, picking up other people. When we got there, it was "hurry up and wait". It was freezing outside, but luckily we didn't have to wait outside. It just added to the whole experience. I had to hand over my ID card, which the paranoid part of me didn't like. I was told I'd get it back during my interview. We were taken from …

Feels like 34

I didn't cover my plants earlier because I wanted them to get a good drink and all the "sun" they could get. I took a nap when I got home. When I woke up, it was cold, too cold for "The Babies". Now, almost anything can get categorized as one of my "babies" but for now it's plants.

It's pouring rain. It's windy. It feels like 34 degrees. That's not counting the extra chill when I'm soaked from the freezing rain because I need both hands free to cover the babies.

I went outside and covered everyone. I'm going to keep my frost covers dry from now on - they're impossible to use wet. I covered one tomato plant thus: A large 55 gallon heavy duty "contractor" bag over the tomato cage, then an old coat over the plastic bag. Other plants were covered with fleece blankets, old pots, and buckets. I got thoroughly drenched but all the babies are nice and snug.

Remember when I said I wouldn't plant the 6-packs …

Metrolift tomorrow

Well, I was up a pound and a half this morning. Not encouraging. My waist size is the same, though. I didn't drink 64 ounces of plain water, 2/3 of it was flavored no-calorie water. Maybe that was a factor. I've noticed, though, that my weight seems to spike right before I lose. I wonder what I'll be tomorrow.

I packed my food to bring to work today. I didn't even eat it all, yay. About the only thing I felt I did badly was the fat. As I was eating my lunch at Papas BBQ, (I got a chef salad), I realized my meal had hardly any fat. I didn't trust their salad dressing so I brought my own. The smoked turkey, while delicious, was lean. No cheese because of my migraines. Just meat and chopped romaine and iceberg lettuce. Yum, yum (sarcasm). I've been ruined by my Earthbound Farms Organic baby lettuce mix. It's so savory. This reminded me of eating foam peanuts. I only ate a cup.

When I got home, I took a half hour walk. I've got my Metroli…


I bought some purple petunias today at Walmart. I'm not glad I lost my antipsychotic, but I was glad I went in today. I got some good driver candy, once I got over the fact that Walmart was out of the big bags of the little plain Hershey bars! Those are the FIRST thing that the drivers go for when I give them their candy! I got an extra bag of the Farley chocolate mix, 2 of those ought to substitute for the Hershey bar.

I also got a big bag of individually wrapped Lifesavers. Those used to be a big hit when I worked in an office. I'd keep them in a bowl on my desk; people loved them. So, that's a good thing. More of the snickers, milky ways and such too. I had them all down on my list.

Boy, the cashiers love the candy. I'm so glad I started giving it to them too. I may have 2 transactions, other than that I'm pretty easygoing (if they don't mind my chatter). I like to think I'm making everyone's day better.

They even had my meat on sale, the …
I woke up 2 pounds heavier, but no migraine. I figure I'm retaining water because I know I didn't get enough water yesterday. My bicycling muscles were a little sore (I did 20 minutes of intervals the night before the migraine) so maybe they're a factor too.

When I measured my waist, it was half an inch smaller! Yeeeha! I'm still not quite a comfortable Walmart 20W but it's close. I was able to wear the jeans all day and not think "Oh, God, I'm being strangled" like I did not even two weeks ago.

So I'm down at least 5 pounds, we'll call it, and 1.75 inches thinner in my waist. That's good. I felt very wise today because I ate 2 sausage patties for breakfast and brought snacks - a cooked hamburger patty and 1 cup of my cooked pork strips. Yummy. When I got hungry, I ate them. My hunger was well controlled and I decided "I could eat" at Walmart (more on that). I got a plain double hamburger and threw the bun to the grack…

Another pound, another migraine

Yeah. I woke up a pound lighter, at 222 (my God, I typed it out loud), but with a migraine! UUUUUUGGH. I managed to medicate myself with some coated asprin, antidepressant, (couldn't take the lithium because I have to take it with food and I was queasy), ginger root capsules, and Head on! I love that stuff. It made me barely functional.

Our sandwich guy was fired for insolence (I'm not surprised), so we had someone "new" coming. Who? I probably needed to wave him in to the proper driveway. Plus we had donuts coming in too. Our sandwich delivery person turned out to be the owner of the company, a very nice asian lady with an atrocious accent. She wanted to put in her side of the story, I listened, but nodding was KILLING my poor head. I'm going to give some unidentified basil starts to Zelda at work, I was able to talk to her too. I don't see a major pressing need for basil right now in my garden, and I've got plenty of seed (that I can identif…

Cardinals in the red-tips

I've got cardinals in my red-tips. I have large red-tip photinas next to the house. I've allowed them to grow and keep a natural form, while maintaining the pathway to the side yard. They're nice and dense (but no space for muggers, etc. to hide in them) so the birds love them. I've got a blue jay, a couple of ring-neck morning doves, a flock of sparrows, and the cardinals. They all visit on occasion (they like to look in on me while I'm posting or internetting), but it's been all cardinals, all the time the last few days. I find them adorable. They're a cute couple and smart enough to stay away from the cats. I'm sure the love the organic bugs in my yard, too.

I did an inventory today and two marigolds were "total losses" black to the roots. I pulled them up and put them in the compost pile. When I was at Walmart this morning I was assaulted by marigolds, they just kept jumping in my cart (I got a six pack each of "Bolero"…


I just finished watching the movie "Pitch Black" for probably the 6th time. I love the movie, it's probably my "most favorite". It's got everything, a good plot, excellent characters, good themes. I hate to write about it for fear I'll "ruin" it, it's that good. I explained a little about the movie to my Dad tonight, I think I did a good job of illustrating the movie without ruining it. It's my perfect movie.

A little voice in my head says "If you like the movie so much, you should sent an email to the writers and director". I may just do that. At any rate, I'm always thrilled to see it in my program guide on the Sci-fi channel. When I get a DVD player, I'll buy the DVD.

I noticed today that my side effects aren't as bad as they were before I started Atkins. It's very nice to see. I'd almost do it just to reduce my side effects. I can bend over and change position suddenly without feeling like I…