So they slashed it to $2. I went ahead and bought another XL.
Made it to lunch. My aunt is coming tomorrow so that will be awesome. Only 2 hours to go when I get back. Boss leaves at 8.
She will be off a couple days so I can look forward to tomorrow.
That's it for now.
Made it to work. Had 2 manic women on bus one said she was pregnant and refused to pay. I wanted to ask why the father wasn't driving her around or at the very least putting value on her bus card. The other one also took up 3 seats giggling uncontrollably pawing through her 4 bags of junk. I had my headphones.
Then a middle aged white guy got on at a bad stop trying to catch my eye. I did not engage, I have a policy of only speaking to the driver. But that's the " Freaks and Geeks" bus stop per one driver so NOPE NOPE NOPE.
Dad fixed my reservation he had dropped a vowel from my last name but it's fixed now. My aunt is working on getting me that IRS check even though I am not hopeful. I hope she comes tomorrow night but I don't want her to be too tired.
Saw my boss passing through the breakroom she seems to be in a good mood. That's it for now.
I didn't sleep well but I felt like I got enough rest. I am back to the waking up every few hours thing.
I had Biscuit and Cleo in my bed, they like to walk on my chest as I'm lying down. It is cute, albeit a little painful.
My aunt is pretty sure they will be coming to visit this weekend. That would be great; I can copy my key, try to cash that IRS check made out to me AND Ron, etc. I also hope to run by the thrift store. I have a lot of old shoes I want to donate.
One thing the homeless don't seem to have here are shoes so I am sure the thrift shop will appreciate the donation. And they are in good shape they don't stink or anything, but I like to change them out around 6 months or if they start hurting my feet.
I plan to have 3 copies made of my key. One for backup, one for Sara (pet sitter), and one for Jack he would be good to have it if I locked myself out or something. I don't plan to hand out the mail box key as I will put a hold on my mail.
I am happy with the front room. I had a bunch of evangelism stuff on the "orange"couch and a lot of cat hair on the blue one. That's all gone,it looks good.
I think I will buy myself another "Pello" chair from Ikea to replace the one I put in the Bible room, the plastic chair is pretty uncomfortable for watching TV or talking on the phone. That's only like $50 I am not going to find a more comfortable or cheaper alternative that looks OK. I will save up for that.
As it is I spent about $80 yesterday on candy, half for Halloween (with bags) and half to hand out because I am tired of running out halfway to my day off. So that's my luxury money.
I still need to figure out what's left of my budget. I do hope to go to the thrift shop this weekend and get a cute tunic top to wear in CA, assuming Dad fixes my reservation. He tried to get me to do it and then said if he couldn't do it he would ask my aunt, who was NOT pleased!
My poor aunt has quite the reputation as the family "fixer".
It is nice to be up early on a work day. I worked the budget and managed to get some Green Gobbler drain cleaner. My drains are fine and I want to keep them that way. I get hair going down (in spite of my hair trap) the tub drain and grease (in spite of careful dish washing) going down the kitchen sink so I think it's a good idea to rout it out every now and then. I can pour it in, go to work, leave it all day and flush it out when I get home (it is an enzyme cleaner and will not eat the pipes). I am very happy using it and try to get some now and then.
I had a main line backup back in 2014 I think it was, the blockage was about halfway back in my house, on my birthday no less, I had ick coming into the tub drain whenever I flushed the toilet. The kitchen (front of the house) was OK so I washed my hair in the kitchen sink but It was revolting and awful. It cost us a fair chunk of change to get someone out to clean it.
If I can prevent that by spending $100 a year or so I am fine with that. I am very careful what goes in the drain, brush my hair before I take a shower, and use a hair catcher in the tub (that catches a lot!) so I feel like I'm being a Good Homeowner.
Interestingly enough our second place Ron and I put anything down the drain, he would shave off a 3 inch beard and rinse it down the drain, stuff like that and never clogged. We were on the second floor though. It was an older place built in the 1940's. That was 1993-1999.
I do wonder how we got injured from the mold. I know Ron had chemical sensitivity from it and I still have a lot of headaches. But there was literally no other place for us to go. Housing was obscene and we made too much to qualify for "poverty level" housing, so we spent like 75% of our take home on rent and utilities. It was awful.
And I am a homeowner here in Texas. I don't blame anyone for wanting to move here but Texas is great because it has conservative Christian values. Respect that.
I am going to take my shower and do my God time. Shocking, yes, I know.
Did that, got dressed, even put my hair in a very simple braid (it doesn't get in the way that way and I don't do it tight enough to hurt).
I am going to buy lunch at work and eat before I start that way I don't have to worry about break/lunch although that isn't as much of an issue these days. I brought my little half gallon water thermos hopefully I can buy some ice from McDonald's and put that in there. I am not going to take the ice without paying. That, to me, is theft.
And like I tell them at work "I'll do anything at work that doesn't break the 10 Commandments". and they all laugh.
That's it for now.
I don't post cleaning photos or many photos of the house these days since the APS fiasco. The reader wanted to change my behavior but probably didn't count on that.
Anyway, loveseat:
Before. As you can see Biscuit liked to camp out there for a bit.
After, 16 sheets of sticky lint roll
Then I put a cheap throw on it so I don't have to do it again if he comes back.
My aunt and uncle like sitting on this couch:
And I cleaned the toilet. My rubber glove sprang a leak that was unpleasant. I need to get some new ones.
At some point I need to make a list for shopping after work one night. I do have milk and block cheese so I am OK for that but I need shred cheese, some cleaning products, etc.
That's it for now.
I feel like I'm playing hot potato with my Dad. He gave the wrong name for my reservation and he said "Oh you can fix that" I said "Oh I think you had better do it". Hopefully we can get it fixed quick 'cause I can't fly like that!
Going out actually went OK but I was battling a headache which has just gotten worse. I did have a nice nap with Biscuit and Cleo though. I am glad they like having me around cuddling, purring, head butting me for pets.
My aunt said she may come this weekend. That would be great but does necessitate some house cleaning. I can't get everything but I can clean up the bathroom, etc. I got out of the habit of scrubbing the toilet with my hand messed up this summer. I also need to free up some space on the couches. I also need to get the cat hair off the couches so they have somewhere to sit.
That's it for now. If you pray please do pray this whole plane reservation thing gets fixed quick.
And a headache; some night off.
But I'm up now. Going to shower and do God time,then go out. I would like to get done before it gets too hot and hopefully also get a nice nap in there as well.
Sometimes I hear a song and think that would go well in the soundtrack of my life especially the last couple years with Ron. Like "I'm Alright" by Fleetwood Mac showing me running around trying to hold it down.
I went and ran my errands. Took 6 buses, 5 of them had minimal waiting. The last one I didn't get to the bus stop in time but he came to a screeching halt, extended the ramp so I could easily load my hand cart. He did not know me but saw the milk on my cart and hated the thought of my groceries out in the summer heat. He could not have been nicer.
Usually drivers hate to use the ramp feature but he did, twice. We picked up a guy on the way who had a real attitude about my hand cart (he could get by but he didn't want to) and the driver basically told him to shut up, I was only going a few more stops.
Very nice. So that saved me half an hour cooking my brains at the bus stop.
That's it for now.
I don't really have a hobby outside of the blog and evangelism. But it was nice, when I hired the tree guy, to go in the Bible room and grab some Spanish booklets, zip locks, and candy, put together some nice little bags for the 3 workers.
2 Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season
It's very important to me to share the Gospel with as many people as possible. I feel like God sends them to me to be served and I need to do that.
Tomorrow I will go buy more candy; I'm almost out. My headache comes and goes,my appetite is on and off today, but at least I handed out the 3 bags and did my God Time. That's enough.
I was very hungry all morning now battling a bad headache. I hate when I get a headache on a day off but a headache at work, especially stocking, is worse.
I just had a glass of very cold water that helped.
I did all my laundry, did jeans earlier this week and everything else last night so it's all done. I also decided to "try" some of my new underwear while I'm at home so I can take it off and go to my regular stuff if it's uncomfortable.
I don't want to break it in at work when I am stuck wearing it for 12-13 hours. Better to try it a few hours at home and see if it works. Sometimes I get tired of plain underwear.
Now I used to think I only wore nice stuff for my husband, to impress him. But I have decided I can wear it just for me if I want. It's not a sex thing. Just like wearing a nice brightly colored t shirt instead of a boring black one (I have a lot of black t shirts for work). Of course no one sees it but me.
Things this year got me thinking about this; years ago I read a very interesting book on style called "Fabulous You" and figured out I was a Sporty/Romantic type. Romantics apparently are big on lingerie. I have a little of that but also highly practical as well; you will most often find me in my trusty cotton underwire bra but underwear who knows?
So trying that out today.
Headache is better that cold water is great. A friend bought me a basic filtering pitcher about a year ago and I like to keep that rascal in the fridge, full. And then use it for the cats. Biscuit gets very excited when he sees me with the pitcher in my hand.
For breakfast, I make a shake with whole milk and whey protein powder, sometimes a little cinnamon powder too. It has a negligible amount of fake sugar in it. Biscuit gets very excited when he sees me assembling the blender and taking the carton of milk out of the fridge. Occasionally I give him a little dab, it doesn't bother him but I worry about him getting calcium stones so I don't do it often. It's a special treat.
I have to balance him having a life worth living vs. having a healthy life. He likes the Iams Urinary so I feed them all that. I have had TERRIBLE luck with "You eat this and you eat that". Especially when I had kittens in the house. The grown ups always wanted to eat the kitten food and the kittens eat the adult. So unless I lock them in the bathroom one at a time with a food bowl. So they all eat the special food. Cleo's fur looks fantastic on it (they all do but she is stellar) so I don't worry about her and Spotty's health. Spotty, being a male cat, should probably eat this anyway.
I have just had lousy luck with FLUTD cats. I've had 3. One in CA, Frosty:
Frosty was particularly sad. He had been acting sick one night and I was very tired so I told myself I would take him to the emergency vet in the morning. I did that, but it was too late, he was in kidney failure. As he was also diabetic and "over 13" the vet advised putting him down which I did. It was heartbreaking to think I could have saved him if I'd just taken him in earlier.
So when Biscuit:
So when I saw him going to the litter box again and again, like my other boys, straining to pee like my other boys, I called the vet and then Ace and got Biscuit to the vet in half an hour. She was able to save him, she had to cath him. He had struvite stones. Managed with diet so overall 98% of the time I am careful, and he will be 9 next month so I guess I've done alright. My vet was not hopeful about cats with this condition and said they never lived very long.
I do feel redeemed that I could use my awful Frosty experience to save Biscuit. But I feel like I'm cursed with FLUTD boys so I am happy to feed Spotty the special diet too. And like I said Cleo doesn't care. Chicken is the #1 ingredient so that's all they want.
Ideally when these guys are gone I will get a pair of bonded female black cats and avoid the issue altogether. Black cats are gorgeous, sweet, and have terrible adoption rates so I would go for them. But God has sent me, like, every other color cat the last 10 years. I also like the tabby and white cats.
It is so nice to feel better.
Spotty just came in the cat door; he announces himself meyowling loudly as he comes through the house. It's very cute and would be great if I were blind. "Spotty's home!" I used to do that with Ron, announce "Bubba's home" loudly to Ron when I would hear the cat door. Ron loved that.
With 6 cats and then down to 5 that was a little crazy.
That's it for now.
So the HOA and I have been going on a while about the dead jasmine vine up the side of my house. They were getting progressively more annoyed but my guy would flake, or I'd find a guy when I was broke, etc. I took some money out of my savings to cover this while I'm off this week.
And this morning I hear yard guys next door trimming the neighbor's tree. I look outside. They have a flatbed trailer with weed whackers and leaf blowers on it. Hm. Maybe they will get my vine. I went over and asked, he said he would have a look when he came down.
He knocked on my door a while later and quoted me $45 which seemed fair. I told him yes and gave him a bag of bottled waters, some candy with Scripture booklets because who am I to miss a shot? He said thank you and went, finished the tree job, came back and did mine.
So that's all done and I can take a nap (yes I gave him a tip).
I need to have a reserve of COLD bottled waters and Gatorades for contractor types coming by.
One thing Walmart stores do is something called "The Zone" where various associates are assigned to the grocery department, make it look nice at a certain time every day so the grocery manager can send beautiful photos to corporate. I have been assigned to work on that most days and I don't mind, I like the grocery manager and want to make his life a little easier, this is one way I can do that. And it gives me a little break from my day.
I'm allergic to almonds and I found it funny every time they were putting me on aisles with almonds, but I am OK with handling them in a package.
I felt like I gave the store a good day's work even with my boss off yesterday.
So I left the house and went to work, falling asleep on the bus again. I need to set an alarm or stand up, maybe both.
When I got to work I had an iced coffee and, right before I started, went up front to the Dr Pepper vending machine (which was sadly not working) to buy a can of regular Dr Pepper as I had a headache and sometimes a can of real sugar soda will help. As I was walking up someone caught my attention. It was Beau.
He looked great, his eyes as blue as ever (but he is Latino/) and shoulders looking very strong. I think one reason I'm attracted to him he is not feeble like Ron was. Looking at him I don't wonder how much help he needs getting on and off the toilet.
He was with some people including an older man he did not introduce me. We chatted for a minute and he said he isn't coming back to work for a while, I gave him a hug and went off to get my Dr Pepper. I could feel his arm wrapped around the back of my neck for a while after.
I did my job, one of my favorite co workers was there so that was fun. I felt bad for another coworker, I won't say much but her man is a player and it is hurting her. Boy that brings back bad memories. There is nothing worse than feeling like your guy wants to be with someone else. Horrible, horrible, thing. She was pretty upset right before quitting time so I sent her a text message with a hug emoji and some hearts only.
I bought a deli lunch which I find very filling and didn't eat any dinner when I got home.
I had about 3 times Doc's suggested daily limit on my caffeine. I was pretty exhausted after work and got an iced coffee on my way home. I did catch the driver I wanted, gave him a New Testament this time. I told all 5 of my drivers "You won't see me tomorrow! See you NEXT WEEK!" That was nice.
My work bus runs pretty frequently during "peak hours" and there was another bus on the route who stayed behind us and let my driver do all the work, then, a mile from the transit center, pulls out in front of my guy and sails in to the transit center like he did all the work. That is a lousy thing to do! I felt very bad for my driver. Because of that my guy was running late and I missed my home bus, had to wait a half hour at a shared bus stop.
I had two New Testaments left in bags of candy. I held one up as various other buses approached and all of them changed lanes to get away from me! I ask God to keep me humble and he does! You would have sworn I was naked and raving, or waving a torch or something (In a sense I feel I was waving a torch, [Jeremiah 23:29]).
My bus finally came and he took the second to the last New Testament. I got home OK and left the last one at the bus stop on the bench. I was beat.
I like to call my aunt on my walk home she can generally talk a minute. I got home and collapsed into bed for about an hour with the boy cats. Cleo had fled in terror because I had my aunt on speakerphone. I really doubt Sara (cat sitter) is going to see Cleo at all. The boys were nicely cuddly and did not fight.
I talked to Dad who is having heart issues and I feel like he is being a good patient on that.
I slept OK considering the amount of caffeine I had. I woke up at 3 and decided to ride with that, did my God Time, started some laundry.
That's it for now.
Tired. Ready to go home. Tough boss is off today thank God.
Helping out co workers but not making a big deal over it. People can see, I don't need to tell them.
I need to figure that out. I can only do so much caffeine. 😜🤔
At work, had an iced coffee. That's it for now.
I am proud of myself for staggering in the Bible room (formerly Ron's) and doing up 8 New Testaments with candy to hand out today. I did it first, not last like I normally do. Now I don't have to worry about having time.
I need to figure out what I'm taking. Dad donates to the Pocket Testament League so he has a lot of their Gospels of John and he wants me to hand those out. Well I can honor my parents by doing that, it's Scripture and it has a plan of salvation in it. I have tracts and Scripture booklets in my bag also I need to decide if I "need" to take them. Also the 5 pound bag of candy but is that really enough?!
Walmart is doing a big push for Halloween seasonal stuff already so I know I can find candy in CA. Some, at least. Speaking of Halloween they have a "spooky" black t shirt with a burning Jack O Lantern on it that is pretty cool. I have a "friendly"one with black on orange I have worn the last several years but is it time for a new one? I don't know. I also worry the black one is more Satanic.
I do a big push on Halloween every year with 100 or so bags of candy with full sized Snickers and a Scripture booklet. I have ordered the booklets. I need to get the bags and the Snickers but not right now it is too hot. Unlike many Christians I think I can redeem Halloween with the evangelism because I can NEVER normally hand out literature to other people's children. Not only can I do that they all say thank you. It's one tradition Ron and I had that I feel has value and should be continued.
In a good week I can hand out 100 items to adults but I like to take every opportunity, one reason the mailman is killing me not wanting anything. But he is good about bringing my tracts and such.
My sponsor is sending me New Testaments. What, I don't know. I told him to surprise me. About the only big thing I need to do before I go is get my key copied for Sara and Jack (he should have one and says he doesn't), and figure out how to turn off my mail while I'm gone. Last year someone robbed the mail man and stole the master key and the HOA was telling us to check our mail daily; I was not and worried. Besides something larger (like the Halloween Scripture booklets) might arrive while I'm gone.
My aunt has me in her sights and plans to come before I travel so that will be LOADS of fun. Looking forward to that, a lot.
Shower time. I have decided not to pack a lunch and buy a hot one from the deli as a reward for working 8 days in a row. I didn't complain because I can use the money and it was in my availability. That's the only time I complain, if they ask me to work later than I safely can.
My Bible study was a lot about overcoming persecution and how the Devil when attack when you're doing work for God. I really hope I have a good day but that has me worried!
That's it for now.
Trip to work started out uneventful, new drivers, giving out candy with tracts. Get to the transit center and there are the JW's glowering over by a bus stop. And wait, there's more over by my bus stop. I felt very invaded and wanted to do some sort of Holy Spirit Cleansing on the whole place. I can stand the stench of urine and the homeless but the JW's are just a bit much.
I did hand out as much as I could and did a total of 12 bags of candy with a tract. Second bus had a lunatic board. The guy was talking to himself. We see that a lot, even guys yelling at themselves. Punching the air and jerking in the seat are not customary. Getting up, pacing around trying to stare down the other passengers? I got out my stun gun where he couldn't see it. He did get off after about 20 minutes but I was very tense.
Got to work and boss is there, stressed out and very tired and has lots of small projects for me. So I did that all day.
I managed to catch the 2:05 which meant I was home by 3:30. Not many people riding at that hour! It was miserably hot; the wind was hot, even my glasses were hot. But I made it.
Tomorrow is my last day then I have 2 off.
He got on dirty wearing a fresh hospital band. Began raving nonsense, punching the air, jerking in his seat, and staring at people. He was so aggressive toward a woman with a service dog she went to the back of the bus and the dog was still whimpering.
I really thought he would attack someone but he got off after about 15 minutes. Glad I had my stun gun.
Why did the hospital let him go? He should have been forcibly medicated and locked up until he got sane again.
They are stubborn like me. I feel like it is throwdown spiritual warfare. I don't come against them directly but you can bet I am praying.
But I feel like I got enough sleep if that makes any sense. (yawn) I haven't shaved my legs in a few days so I think I will get that during today's shower.
I did up all my candy last night so I just need to do shower, God time, get dressed, and lunch. I made some iced tea last night to take to work as well. Only bad thing I forgot to charge my cell phone but I should have enough time to do it.
I forget if I mentioned this Dad said absolutely not to me having Bibles shipped to them. He was worried I would have a case shipped as well. I wasn't, I was only going to do about 40, but I will respect his wishes. He has something else for me to hand out.
Mom said only bring 1 pair of jeans as it's pretty hot right now. That informs my packing.
I'm going to take my shower. That's done, along with my God Time. I was queasy in the shower I don't know why. I have been having a LOT of hot flashes lately though. Good, if I'm all done on the periods that is just fine with me. Not having kids anyway.
Biscuit does a really sweet thing, when I take a shower he lies on the tub mat next to the tub and waits for me. It's very cute. He moves when I come out, dripping.
I think I'm going to lie down for a minute, all I need to do now is make my breakfast and lunch and that won't take long.
I had a nice quick cuddle with Biscuit he is such a sweet boy. Time to go.
I made it home OK. I handed out the rest of my evangelism stuff (I brought 10 items) so I feel good about that. One of the drivers was like a little kid at Christmas when I gave him his candy, it was very sweet, made my whole day worth it.
Boss usually has Sunday off please please. I did decide to get a McDonald's coffee tomorrow morning because I don't need coffee after work. I tried to take a nap but could not. I did get some laundry going.
Today is SVU on ION not my favorite so no TV. I did decide I needed more Bible study. I have them in my vest at work. I need them in my backpack too. So I did that when I got home. My backpack is falling apart if I don't get one for my birthday (it's on my wish list) I will buy one. The one I have is holding up though.
I think one reason God put me with this boss I have a tendency to look for people's approval vs. His. She is very stingy with her approval and often highly critical so if I want encouragement I must look elsewhere, to Him. She is not a bad woman she is under a lot of pressure. I also suspect she has both OCD and ADD you can imagine how that goes; and no medication. Plus pressure from higher ups and a lot of drama in her personal life. I don't envy her, I don't hate her, I just wish she would forget about me sometimes.
The washer just scared the daylights out of me. I turned it on and it just sat there for about 3 minutes with me frantically praying before it decided to fill. That was scary! I had jeans in it.
With it this hot I feel like I can only wear a pair of jeans 2 days before I have to wash it because I am sweating in it every minute I am outside and that can be hours a day. So I have 4 jeans in there (thank you for all the clothes, Lord).
I need to figure out what I'm taking to CA. I have some cute shorts, those will go. I will wear a pair of jeans on the plane but haven't figured out which yet. I would like another pair of jeans, some leggings, t shirts, and 2 dresses (I will be there a week). I like to have all that packed well in advance, I always have.
When Ron and I were both working at non profits we had generous vacation time, so we took a week every year to visit his family in Houston, go to Galveston, etc. I packed well in advance and Ron said he would pack the night before.
But he ate at "Salmonella kitchen" in the Tenderloin and got food poisoning that day. I actually had to dope him up on my phenergan to get him on the plane (I had it for migraines). He was in no shape to pack, so I did it for him, and of course he wasn't happy. But after that he learned 1. Don't eat there right before a trip and 2. Pack your bag early. He didn't have much fun. He was pretty sick the whole time but I had plenty of phenergan and he was not drinking much back then so it was OK.
I already have the candy, some evangelism material. I have a sponsor ready to ship Bibles to Mom and Dad for me to hand out. I just need to get the OK from them.
Oh and when I get back (going to call them in a minute) I will tell you about the female co worker who is trying to move in with me. She is very lazy and on the verge of being fired. NO THANKS. I told her I am a nudist that did it.
Today handing out candy (fully clothed!) I had 2 guys who were a lot of fun. The drivers who know me expect the candy. They are happy to get it and understand my motivation because they have seen the material I hand out.
Today I had (more than) 2 guys who had never met me before. The first driver just gaped at me as I put the candy in his hand. "What is this?" I said "It's candy, for you." "Why?" "They call me the Candy Lady you can ask the other drivers about me" and I hopped off.
The second driver, on the way home, a route I don't take but runs and stops at the shared bus stop. He stopped, I got on, said "I'm not riding" (otherwise they shut the door!) and gave him the candy. He was ecstatic. "For me? Really?" and grinned from ear to ear. Both were a lot of fun.
For the unreached mocker you can do this yourself without Jesus material it is a lot of fun. For my Christians this is easy and fun. Get a tract or Scripture booklet (World Missionary Press link on the lower right hand corner of this page), stick it in a sandwich baggie (the kind that zips not the kind that folds) and a handful of "good" wrapped candy. You never know what kind of impact it may have.
I handed out 10 and could have done more. So I did more tonight to take tomorrow.
Oh Dad FREAKED when I mentioned having a sponsor ship Bibles to him. He says he has something for me to hand out, a lot of it. So I'll do that. I was sorry I upset him.
That's it for now.
Irrational
Highly critical
Ever present
Very happy to leave! 😂 I feel like I need a drink. I don't of course but mentally exhausted. I had a fancy iced coffee after.
On first bus going home.
I find it interesting that God has shown me ugly character flaws, early on, with pretty much every man since Ron died. I appreciate it. Saves a lot of time and keep it up, Lord.
My boss was surprised I was there last night as I work 3 days earlier in the week, then 2 nights. That's just how personnel has it right now. I told her I can do anything between 8 AM and 9 PM. But I know they were short staffed this morning and had plenty of people last night so I suspect I will eventually move to more days. That's fine.
It's the working a night and then the day that is hard like today as I got about 5 hours sleep.
I came home last night, very tired and needing encouragement, SO happy when I checked the mail and found this:
Bible studies and also the "New Testament" reference book I had requested but wasn't on the website anymore. I was really happy about that. I like to read them at work, carry them in my vest pocket and grab a lesson on my break,lunch, before work. They get pretty beat up quick but I think God is OK with me actually USING them. So I have a good amount. I may also read them on the bus I will have to think about that as I like to be alert.
That was a huge blessing for me. I have one of each (I requested 5 of each) in a bag to go in my vest at work. I can't have too much Jesus.
I talked to my parents. I was worried about my adoptive Mom as she had oral surgery, knocked out to get 2 teeth pulled, yesterday but she sounded fine. I just worry about them undergoing anything at their age.
We didn't talk long we were all tired.
Speaking of tired I am. Today is day 6 in a row. Out of 8. I don't know why they did the schedule like this but I'll work it as it means I get 2 days Tuesday and Wednesday and then 2 more days Saturday and Sunday. I may contact the church and see if I can attend the Sunday evening service see how I like that.
It also means I have my payday off which is great. I need to buy more candy I have been handing a lot out. I am OK for meat but can use salad stuff and milk but not this minute.
I am really happy I only work a 4 hour shift today that means I'm only there 4 hours instead of 7 like my usual day. And don't forget that is 4 hours travel in addition.
I view the travel as my mission trip to the drivers every day. I get to hand out a minimum of 5 things every day I ride both ways to work, often more.
I am going to have Jesus take the wheel today and carry me through the day. I should get enough sleep tonight thank Him so that will make tomorrow much better.
That's it for now.
Another blog about weight issues.
Adoptive Mom had oral surgery today but is fine.
Something that happened today made me very glad Ron was such a wreck the couple years before he died. He would get lost in the house in early 2020 so he basically went to bed and stayed there. Excruciating back pain encouraged that. Why would I see this as a good thing?
Today on the bus we had a very confused old man who didn't know where he was going. All he knew the street had "green" in it which of course was no help. Several people tried to help him but it was obvious, to me at least, he needed full time care. And I thought that ABSOLUTELY would have been Ron without the back trouble. So I am grateful for that.
Sometimes God lets me see His plan in things and today was one of them.
Ride to work was tiresome but I have handed out a total of 15 New Testaments the last 2 days. I am happy about that. I asked my sponsor for more.
I need to ask Mon if she is OK with me having him ship some direct to their house so I don't have to bring them. If she says no I will buy and ship them myself.
Thats it for now, tough boss is off at 4 so only 2 hours. More later.
I wasn't taking the water with me for the right reason; I wanted to be the woman who handed out a lot of bottles of cold water not really doing it 100% for Jesus. But having to lug it to the bus stop, back home for bus pass, then back to bus stop got me thinking about virtue signalling and doing things for the right reason. I did drink one cold bottle water. I had 7 New Testaments with tracts in bags of candy, I handed those out with the water to bus drivers on my routes and at the transit center. But I won't take so many waters today.
I am not supposed to overdo it in the heat according to 2 of my medications and I don't want to get sick. It did work to take 2 quarts of Gatorade with me and to drink a glass before I left. But, because I forgot the bus pass (won't today!) I had all new people yesterday and a new mission field and I hope I made the most of it.
Yesterday we had $1 shorts. I managed to get 3 pair I will need to see if they fit. That is one area I could use a little help; shorts. They have a 4 inch inseam and I am debating if that is too frisky for evangelism. If they fit I will take a photo and put it up.
Shower time, then God time, candy prep (going to do New Testaments again today), and meal prep. I am not crazy about sandwiches but I can use the boost in my budget.
Ready to go I even braided my hair. That's it for now.
Bought 7 pounds Iams Urinary and a couple cans of mixed grill. Ate my sandwich which was kind of warm even with the ice pack.
Work is going OK. Difficult boss was off today.
It is very funny to me: the people tasked with doing my old job (part of it) do nothing but moan and cry about the difficulty. Now they understand what I did. This is actually easier than my old job.
I also generally get break and lunch when I want it not when I'm told.
That's it for now.
One problem I encounter as an evangelist: if I am "giving" to this person why not "that". I give people material if I think they'll read it, plain and simple. So I get random "bums" bothering me for cash, use of cell phone, etc. And I say no in a firm voice. But it is a hazard. I had 2 people bothering me on the way to work. One went away when I gave her my last New Testament in a bag of candy 😂😜.
The other I don't know what he wanted. He was very obese wearing too tight shorts that barely covered his genitals and did not cover most of his butt crack. So when he started pestering me I said "I'm not interested" and turned my head facing away. I was out of material anyway.
But it is a peril of being the candy lady. Oh and I did order more tracts to take to CA.
Had about 6 bottles of water for the drivers/whoever plus 2 quarts for me. And realized I did not have my bus pass. If the drivers knew me I could just ask for a ride but these don't.
I did not have any singles to pay so I had to walk back home , say hi to a very surprised Biscuit, get the pass, go back. It was hot. It was heavy. It was sunny and I sweat a lot and did swear a few times.
I freshened up with my hand towel and a small aerosol bottle of perfume. Caught my buses everything was a big hit. Now I'm on the last bus. That's it for now.
I feel well rested and positive; I needed that night of sleep.
Talked to Mom last night Dad was at a meeting. I was able to give her some caregiver advice. Let me tell you about the Ziploc twist and lock.
This is what Ron used as his urinal:
Well the second driver was different, came on time instead of late so I missed him. But I always build time for that, I can, living alone. And it meant lots of new drivers to distribute!
One of them made me laugh. Sitting in her seat, sees me coming and sticks her hand out around the protective barrier. So I put it in her hand and we both grinned! Fun!
Not fun: I have 2 streets to cross to get to work. Crossing the second, had the light (like Ron!), big rig comes flying through almost hit me. And "Very Early Monday" would have been my last post!
At work now I just heard my boss on the PA so she's here. I work 8 days straight today is only day 3. She is going to be off at least one of them.
I was bad and bought an iced coffee which was delicious. Whatever bean they use is very smooth. Tonight I can actually get a full night's sleep because I don't work until 2 pm tomorrow. It will be hot coming in though.
That's it for now.
Well it was definitely a case of good news/bad news. Last week I found "Period" brand underwear at work for half the price of a Thinx. I bought one, washed it, wore it to work yesterday just to see if it was comfortable and I could work in it. Did it feel strange? I worried it would feel like a diaper. It was no different from regular underwear and I liked it.
BUT they put them on clearance literally less than a week after they came, so that is a bummer. Last I saw Walmart.com still had them and they are well reviewed but I am discouraged they are gone already. I don't plan to wear this as a primary but as a backup for my cup.
I had a hard time getting going yesterday. I had low energy so I took a B complex, which made me both depressed and nauseous. That's not something you want when you work at a Walmart and have to ride a city bus 2 hours each way. But God gave me what I needed so I could work.
Work itself was pretty uneventful.
I got home OK. My driver from work was very surprised to get candy again. I told him he gets candy every day I ride and he liked that. I also told him he had a hard, thankless job and it was a terrible route. He didn't argue with me. Not too many homeless again but the manic lady rode again. She didn't bother the school kids this time I think even she knew she had overstepped last time.
I was glad I was paying attention as I walked down the street in my subdivision because the guy with the 3 pit bulls was out walking them. He is not very attentive. They are on leashes but the leashes are loosely held. And I smell like cats. I crossed the street to avoid them. He is the kind of owner lets them stop and pee/poop in everyone's yard. Probably no assets if they did attack me. But I did manage to avoid them.
I also (forgot to mention) saw the manic woman lives at the low income housing complex, the one who had the dried menstrual blood all over her leggings? She didn't this time but she got on, saw I had my "ears on" (Headphones) and ignored me, found a victim and began a long rambling monologue interspersed with intrusive personal questions. I love my headphones because they do keep people from bothering me and at least of late I don't feel God wants me reaching out to anyone but the driver. I wouldn't wear them at the bus stop but they are useful once I get on the bus.
It also worked OK for talking to my aunt (has a built in microphone). I got the headphones for $3 at a supermarket checkout line.
The advantage about corded earphones it doesn't indicate I have any kind of wealth. Virtually everyone else on the bus has the $100 wireless earbuds and I want to be the poorest person on the bus.
Yesterday I was over on the soda aisle buying some real Cokes and the Dr Pepper vendor told me I had some "serious bell bottoms" (he is about 25 I think so I thought it was funny he knew the term). We flirt a little even though I am old enough to be his Mom and I told him I had gotten off the fake sugars. He congratulated me which I thought was nice.
I have also found we have club soda in the alcohol aisle and I can do that.
Yesterday I volunteered for a job no one likes and my boss was thrilled I think that will be part of my job ongoing now. And I'm OK with that.
I need to take my shower, that's it for now.
I hope I can push through; Christ in me is going to have to do the heavy lifting.
But His strength is made perfect in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). So I will hang onto that.
Almost missed the second bus. I got off the first one and he was coming across the street. I didn't have time to get out my flashlight but he still saw me and stopped. It will be a different driver tomorrow so who knows. Otherwise uneventful. I got some peppermints a while back and they are helping with the nausea.
I slept OK just not enough. I was happy I talked to my parents, Mom got the generic pepto tablets.
I get migraines Mom has stomach issues; she had a very bad case of salmonella in the 80's, diverticulitis in the 90's, you can imagine. I had sent Mom a picture of my generic pepto tablets and she was able to show it to the HBA/pharmacy associate and get some. And the price is very reasonable too.
I get nausea at times from medication/acid stomach from stress so I like having the tablets.
I think I am OK saying that my new job is basically a stocking one so it is old home week for me, this is something I have done for over 20 years. I just have to learn their methods. But the boss seemed happy yesterday and I am very grateful she moved me rather than just lay me off.
I need to take my shower but I woke up with a pretty nasty headache. I seem to have beaten it back but it was pretty rough. Yesterday I picked up some B vitamins so I am happy about that. I took one this morning.
Yesterday I had an iced coffee and the vitamins and had hot flashes most of the morning, but some of that may have been the physical activity too. The vest they give us retains heat and is pretty miserable to wear if you are doing physical labor; but they are getting us a new vest this winter.
Now I'm going to take that shower. Almost ready. It IS the B vitamin making me queasy and giving me the hot flashes, at least I know now. I should be OK by the time I start work.
I did up 11 bags of candy with tracts hopefully that's enough. Yesterday a driver who normally passes before I can get to him was running late and that got me to work early. We will see if he catches up today; if he does that is just a new mission field at the transit center.
We also had a guy dressed in solid black walking down the middle of the dark street last night, then he got an attitude when the driver wouldn't pull over and let him board! Someone who does that is NOT right I wouldn't want him on my bus either.
I can always use prayer for a good day for me, my family, my recipients. That's it for now.
Coworkers seem happy to have me. Boss has thanked me a couple times. Lunch was a little later than I would have liked but I can live with that.
I just have to get through the next hour and a half and then the ride home. Sigh. That will be a while
Looking forward to seeing the cats when I get home and talking to my family.
My boss arranged another job for me as my job is going away. I have been working hard all morning. She seems happy and I am being productive.
I may need to rethink my availability. So far it is going well and I feel relieved. Dad would say she valued my hard work at the other job and wanted me in this role. I don't know about that but I'm not lazy.
The B vitamins have been giving me hot flashes all morning. 😜😂
Caught the first bus OK. Second bus was late so I ended up on it way ahead of time. There was some fool walking down the middle of the road, in the dark, wearing head to toe black. Bus driver almost hit him.
Got the last bus early thanks to other bus. It was funny she knew me.
Got to work very early and bought some b vitamins I have been looking for a good b complex. We will see what the day brings, I will endeavor to make myself useful.
That's it for now.
I slept OK considering. I had done up my pills for the morning because I've found it's useful to take the antidepressant before I get up on those very early mornings. So I wake up, take my pills, go back to bed for 20 minutes, get up. I also took a 100 mg caffeine tablet.
I have decided to focus on good things God has done for me in the past and how He has always had my back.
One example when I was 13 and on the verge of suicide I threw myself on Him and begged Him to save me if He would. But I couldn't go on the way I was. In part this was due to a severe "natural" depression paired with the doctor's use of an SSRI antidepressant which we all know, NOW, causes teens to become suicidal. I was a part of them finding that out. I also had a difficult family life and a psychopath had just shot up my Dad's office a few months previous (Dad was not there.he was meeting with my doctor about my depression). The shooter killed several people and I had to sit and watch the TV with them bringing out the body bags wondering if one of them was my father. And what would happen to me as the woman I called "Mom" was just a stepmother with no legal claim? It's the lowest I ever got.
I had an encounter that night with God where He wrapped me in His love, let me know "This is as bad as it gets" and let me know I would get better, people cared for me, and I just had to hang in there He had great plans for me. He also directed me what I needed to do the next day (followed it to the letter) and things did improve.
Then Ron's accident fifteen years later. The day of his discharge his family decided to disown him. I had counted on them for home care supplies, a ride home, money, etc. Everyone had told me I needed to let them help. I had no money, no home care supplies (including a wheelchair), no ride. No money. No prescriptions. No help and he was going home in hours. I had to make a way. God provided amazingly within a few hours and soon I was safe at home with Ron in bed with his cat. I was eating a pint of Ben and Jerry's (before I was convicted about their politics) making notes in my little journal. He sent the people I needed when I needed and even provided a very nice wedding dress when Ron and I set a date.
I found it at a thrift shop for $5.30. I had asked God for a wedding dress at that particular shop if it was His will for me to marry Ron. You can say a lot about my marriage but I believe it was God's will. I also believe Ron made choices to be verbally and physically abusive that were NOT God's will, and also chose to abuse alcohol in contradiction to God's will as well; that's what made it hard. At the end of it Ron and I did love each other but he had a lot of issues and I had a very hard time standing up for myself.
Let's look at the day Ron died. That morning my checking account balance was $16. Everything was in Ron's name even the only credit card. So I had nothing the day he died. But God laid it on Shaun to start the Go Fund me which soon amassed thousands of dollars, family I barely knew sent me LARGE checks, etc. God provided another job for me after I lost the first one and it's something I enjoy.
So I know God has my back in all this.
Saturday I was at Food Max and they had a great tray of pork chops. I like a thicker chop, little fat and no bone. They were perfect looking. And only about $3.50 for 6 chops so I went ahead and bought it. I cooked them last night.
I just cook mine in a low skillet because I like them juicy and I don't like the breading on them.
They came out perfect and juicy. I love buying meat from a "real" butcher vs.something shrink wrapped in a refrigerated case, that came off a truck from Des Moines (nothing against Des Moines).
Even my meat is well managed, thank you Lord.
I need to take my shower.
So I focused on cleaning today, will do the cooking later. I found some nasty surprises which I have dealt with. Also found out my generic brand cleaner with bleach has a bad spray trigger.
I plan to cook up my pork chops and the sausage tonight. Then clean up after that. When I get the kitchen clean it isn't hard to keep it up it is just GETTING there after I've let it go.
I also lack on the planning and organizing. I would never admit that at work. NEVER but I do. I would be very curious to see a brain workup on myself. Is the brain damage apparent on an MRI? What about conventional testing?
At any rate you "see" that in my daily life in the organization/cleaning of my house. I don't have a routine and I need to work on that. I do fine when I have a routine.
Ron, for instance, the last year or so the day started with Pill time at 4 AM (and PM), breakfast if he wanted it (he liked to have snacks), I would go to work, come back, help him with his needs, empty urinal, toilet duty, etc. Once we got that set we did fine.
So this, I'm not worried. I did better when my aunt was around but she has her own life and I am not her problem. I mean that; I'm not. I'm no one's. I am responsible for myself what I do and don't do.
One thing I'm going to do now: do up my pills for the next 8 days so that will be all ready to go to work every day for the PM stuff and I will know if I took the AM stuff every morning.
Going to do that. Boy, that took forever.
I did up the PM doses in little baggies I look like some sort of drug dealer now. That's it for now.
I did not sleep well last night. I woke up around 8 and did my God Time first thing.
I was sitting in the plastic chair I normally use thinking "This is not very comfortable" and then I had an epiphany. I have a "nice" Pello wood chair in the front room I use for watching TV. I had planned to get another Pello and put it in the blue room but I would rather have it now, I realized.
So I swapped them out.
The purple milk crate has all my paid bills in it. You can see my computer setup in the front room to the left of the TV. But I like that God/Jesus gets the good chair and TV/Computer get the basic ones.
I will get another Pello if I ever get someone coming over regularly again. My aunt is out of town.
I turned up my thermostat a little because the grid is having trouble and I want to do my part; it's at about 85 which is comfortable for me.
I need to:
Sweep and mop floor
Do dishes, cook, do those dishes
That's it for now.
I left the house around 10 and had to wait for about 10 minutes in the suffocating heat. It was very sunny, still, humid and oppressive today. Heat index?
Check THIS out!
And dum-dum (me) was out in the middle of it. I took the one bus up to the light, crossed (didn't have to wait too long this time, either), rode to the transit center. I caught the 56 (after a significant wait I felt) and went to the Food Max grocery store for more of their delicious sausage. I bought the sausage, a "real" soda, and a Powerade, then had to wait a while on a bus back to the transit center. That's where I got the screen shot.
I caught the bus I needed to go to the low cost grocery store but the bus driver pulled over a few minutes into the route, got up, got out the cell phone and got off the bus to make a phone call. That is always a bad sign. Generally means the bus is about to go out of service.
I had been handing out candy all morning so I kept doing that, eventually a supervisor came and they looked at one of the mirrors for a while, and we started up again. I got to the grocery store, which was a mad house. I got more candy, a gallon of milk, and a tub of Gatorade powder which I felt was a very smart investment considering what a trip to ER or Urgent Care would set me back.
Also every damned thing (sorry for language) I read about my medication says I need to be in a safe and happy place with the weather not too hot or cold. That extreme heat is Very Bad for me. And I don't feel well when I'm out in it like I was today but I just got going later than I wanted. Doc agrees and would be horrified if he realized I am out there riding the bus in (waves hand) this.
Oh, and it's going to be 106 tomorrow! [screams]
So mainly the day was me running a few errands while baking like a potato. I did find some good pork chops at Food Max, though. I like a nice meaty chop without a lot of fat and no bone; I found that, several of them for about $4. So I got them.
I talked a little to my drivers they are all changing routes and many are not looking forward to their new assignments. I felt bad for them.
I came home eventually and found myself going pretty slow as I came through the subdivision. Ron always used to say I "Didn't know how to mosey" and that is true I always walk fast everywhere I go. It gets me in trouble when I'm leaving work sometimes because I want to run over the customers!
I came home the cats are good; I gave them a can of food. Let me see if I can put up the video. Yes, the floor is messy. I am going to clean tomorrow.
The squeaking cat is Biscuit, the gray and white. The orange and white is Spotty and the Calico is Cleo.
So no one at store level knows what is going on with my job just that it will be changing soon. My boss was less than helpful. Things are fluid, I should know more in a month perhaps. In the meantime my "fellow" associates are speaking negativity and it is exhausting trying to be upbeat in this.
I can't say more; the snitch who tried to ruin my life with APS 3 years ago made sure of that. I learned my lesson; I won't say what my job is or even where I'm based. The last thing I need is some "anonymous" call out to ruin my life again. I am sorry about that.
But I am dealing with that and it bears sharing. Other than that work was fine last night, mean boss left at 5 (she was off at 4). The rest of the night was pretty quiet.
To the person who told me about period underwear I did some research and found the store carries the "Period" brand and it is $9 instead of $20 for the Thinx. It holds plenty for one day especially as I would wear them as backup for the cup. The last period I had the cup worked great but did leak when I didn't change it in time. So I got a pair, washed them. Days 2-3 are my big days for my cycle. I wear the cup every day because my cycle is very erratic and you can bet the cup will be traveling with me to CA. So the next cycle I can trot these out unless I am in CA.
I can imagine trying to explain that I needed to wash my period underwear. I will bring disposables. A while back I mentioned a bad headache to them and Dad asked why I had it. I said "Hormonal probably"and he said "I thought you were done with that". My older family is very conservative in We Don't Discuss This. So I will bring disposables and 2 cups in case something happens to the one cup.
I don't have any bloating and generally I get severe breast tenderness the week or so before my cycle starts. That has come back along with my cycle this year; but it is erratic. This happened with my birth mother it was very erratic for some years before she hit menopause.
I kept waking up last night with a headache. It was very frustrating as I feel like I have to make the weekend count.
I will do my God Time and then probably go to the store. I need a few small things. The cats are good, Spotty was particularly cute this morning. He likes having me home. And I feel like - even if I remarry - I need to spend some time at home on my days off because I'm it for them,socially. I"m the only human in their lives.
When Ron was alive they had someone 24/7 if I was at work he was right there in the bed.
(went out to run errands after this which will be another post).
Of people trying to scare me about my job. I am a GOOD worker they even say that.
I may look at the coffee shop across the street. 🤔
Walmart public bathroom or city bus? That is a tough one. Both have filthy people using them. Both have body fluids all over.
Not all Walmart customers are filthy but we get a heavy homeless population using our facilities City bus has MANY homeless riding, most for free, and I pay for mine.
By the way all new drivers starting Sunday it should be interesting. I did hand out as much "candy" as possible at transit center and coffee shop today. I feel good about that.
Got a fancy iced coffee; it was miserably hot at the bus stops waiting. I may need to bring an umbrella next time.
Had the coffee. Work will be different tonight all I can say. But it's only 6 hours and then I have the weekend off.
Tired and run down feeling but I will give them a good night's work. That's it for now.
If I ever do find a church I will not tell them about the blog because I think many of them would be horrified about the posts about underwear, menstrual cups, poop knife, etc.
All that said some underwear at work went on clearance a while back. It was the store brand and they had a bikini style that went on sale for $3 for 6, but not in my size. Last night I was walking by and I saw it. So I waited until my break,went back, scanned it with my phone. Yes it was $3. It was unopened as far as I could tell so I bought it.
And it got me thinking last night. God sent me this great deal on lacy underwear but I don't have a man in my life and not looking for one, either. But the Bible says God is my husband so maybe He would like me to wear pretty underwear just for myself now and then? I don't know but it was a thought. I will "try" it on my day off because once I leave the house I am stuck with whatever I'm wearing for the next 12 hours which can be a long time if something digs or chafes.
I am going to enjoy this weekend because I work 8 days in a row once I go back. I set myself up for this when I volunteered for sales tax weekend but I'm a widow with bills. Walmart is my only source of income. I would rather have more money vs.less and the different bus rides mean I will reach different drivers. I see every work commute as a mission trip to drivers.
Sometimes I bring extra material and hand it out to other drivers I don't utilize at the transit center because I don't want to miss anyone God has assigned to me. And the drivers appreciate it.
I had 2 "different" drivers yesterday on the same routes so I found that interesting. I had written up cards stating I'd be praying daily with some Bible verses and put them in with the tracts and candy.
I am working on pride issues so I won't say I'm "proud" to announce but I will say I haven't had any diet sugars all week. I have had some real sugars though.
But I'm off the fake stuff. I am still having some headaches but not horribly.
I need to tweak my budget. Doing OK on that.
I have a 10 pound bag of pinata mix set aside for Halloween if I can hand out candy then. The pinata mix goes fast around October because you get a huge amount for a cheap price and in this economy people want that.
My radar on does a man like me is laughable. Last night I was in the back area (employees only) and they had a employee satisfaction survey board on the wall with things the store is going to do to "make it better". I was looking at it and the autistic guy I think (?) might like me came up and stood very close behind me even though the area was clear and no one else was around.
Now I am 99% sure that is just because no one explained personal space to him. I know Ron actually had to have someone explain to him (when we were in counseling back in 2005, he was a terrible therapist but he did get Ron to give people some space). There is a "coach" he respects at work a very nice lady.
I am going to wait a few days and then casually mention to her could she drop to ___ about personal space and to leave at least 2-3 feet between him and the other employees, especially women? I think that would be OK but I don't want it back tracking to me. I don't want to get him in trouble but, like Ron, it needs to come from someone he respects.
Other than that work went very well. I had a customer going off on me at work and my boss came by, "What is going on?" the customer started spouting out all kinds of lies and nonsense and my boss said "Heather wouldn't do that" and basically told the customer to go away and leave me alone. The ironic thing the customer had said she was there to talk to the "hiring manager" but by the end of her tirade realized she had effectively burned any chances of getting a job at this Walmart and left. Can you imagine if we had hired her? Ugh.
It was nice to know my boss would stand up for me. I had my doubts.
I need to get ready so I'm going to put this up and get ready, maybe do another post later before I go. That's it for now!
Tired of course but no diet soda. Or regular for that matter. Had 2 "all-new" drivers today so that was a good opportunity for evangelism.
Doing up the candy some old favorites are back, also something called cherry sours 🍒 which had a minimal cherry flavor and no detectable sour flavor. Disappointing. But I have a fresh 10 pound assorted bag which should last a week or so depending.
I need to determine if I want to ask for Halloween off or wait and see if they give it. It's a Tuesday so I should be home in time to hand it out even if I work.
That's it for now. Tough boss was working when I came in so hopefully off at 4. I'll keep you posted.
That's it for now.
I don't know what caused it, it was only one block and only one side of the block at that. I got my God Time, shower, and breakfast.
I still need to get dressed and do my hair (I put it in a very simple braid on extremely hot days), do up candy for the drivers but only 3.
That's it for now.
It died about 2 am.
We had work done on a pipe near our street the other day. Electricity is also underground. I think they nicked it as it is only my block and one side at that.
Power has gone off and on a few times since 6 so I am hopeful.
It could have been worse. But I keep thinking about the lunch meat and salad in the fridge.
I have a gas water heater and charged all my devices last night so I am pretty well set. I did unplug the power strip with all the electronics last night when it first went out.
That's it for now!
They are thinking he had a reaction to a medication.
Peeps. We need to talk. I don't care how old you are and certainly if you don't live alone you need to do this too: HAVE A HOSPITAL BAG. Have a list of EVERYTHING you are taking, when, etc. Have your medical history typed out and ready to go. Have an extra charger in a bag along with your insurance card and ID, some underwear, breath mints (they may not let you eat or drink and a mint helps even though it is technically not allowed). You can google hospital bag.
One for you.
One for spouse
One for EACH kid.
I would even go so far as to have one for your pet with the medical information,copies of vaccine records, etc.,and a charger for you, and some snacks because you never know what the pet hospital will have. And they always get sick when the vet is closed!
I am not naming names but this was not done recently and it caused a fair amount of havoc. That is all I can say without breaking commandments.
I could have done more if I lived closer.
He passed out last night. Mom had been worried but trying to hide it I could tell. He is getting tests but they think it is related to a medication adjustment.
He is almost 82. I would appreciate prayer. Thank you.
I was able to work yesterday, I took some Naproxyn before I started and that did a really good job. God forbid you have an aspartame withdrawal headache it is a good fix.
I had 2 iced coffees yesterday so I didn't sleep well last night and had a moderate headache. I rode the bus both ways, yay me. I handed out my material. My morning bus driver told me (this is the second driver to) that it works really well to wave my little flashlight around in the dark they can see me easily "Way before I could see your safety vest". Good to know.
This week is "easy" I work two days starting tomorrow then 2 days off, then I work I believe 8 days in a row. So I had better enjoy it! A couple of the days are only a 4 hour shift.
And the boss actually made a point of thanking me for coming in this past weekend and said "I know you didn't have to do it" so I was very happy walking out of the store last night. She does not give compliments lightly.
I have had a moderate headache all night I took Excedrin for it and probably should have done Naproxyn but it's too late now. I am hoping to go run errands today. Yes, the paycheck dropped.
I am going to go lie down again for a little bit. This withdrawal has been pretty brutal.
I had a protein shake for breakfast and did my God time but I'm not feeling well and will lie down again; this pretty much confirms I need to put Aspartame in with alcohol and "hard" drugs on the DO NOT TOUCH list.
Using speech to text so no punctuation sorry good day at work boss gave me two sincere compliments not just one but two including thanking me for working this weekend I was beginning to feel like they hadn't noticed got myself a nice awesome coffee after work it was delicious
Had 2 small bottles of lemonade it was very good. No aspartame or fake stuff just sugar, water, lemons. Had a million carbs but not worried about that just yet.
Only 3 hours left when I finish my lunch. I'm going to make it!
Saw someone with the sweetest black kitten, too 💕💕
If I take the bus home that is 2 new drivers reached with the gospel. The routes and my schedule change so today is the only shot.
Or I could call a cab and be home hours sooner. WWJD?
Not sure. I did eat a Mcdonald's breakfast and that has stayed down OK. My energy level is better. Hmmm.
You could only use headphones in the breakroom. SICK of listening to this ADD woman channel hopping and listening to the same fake laugh track again and again. I don't make them listen to my Jesus music. Ugh.
She is also a very militant lesbian always shoving her "wife" on anyone who talks to her so wondering what is up with the gospel music?
I hope the day improves. 🤔
I'm not hurting, or nauseous, but I'm very weak and kept waking up last night. I drank an abundance of Gatorade which has kept me hydrated but I am a little sick of orange flavor.
Plan is to go to work, buy some Gatorade and a snack like Triscuits and nibble if I get hungry. But I don't plan to eat until I am actually hungry and I am not.
Everyone always tells me to go eat right away when I'm sick but I can't I will just get sick again. I have to be patient and wait for my appetite, then eat. And it will come back.
That's it for now.
Vomiting in my bucket with a migraine. I took a phenergan suppository and that knocked me out enough to get some rest. When I woke up I felt better.
Still no appetite so my rule is I don't eat until I do. If I eat too soon the nausea and vomiting come back.
Shout out to nurse cat Biscuit and another for nurse cat Cleo who got on my chest and licked my nose. I turned down the AC a little and then turned it up again when I felt a little better.
Diet soda detox is brutal. It was not caffeine as I had an abundance of iced tea this morning.
