Saturday morning

 I have had one ongoing regret at work when I have found cute clearance jeans and didn't buy them.  

It looks like my goal size is going to be about 14.  So when I found several cute jeans in a 14 I had a look on my break.  I got a really nice 90's type wash in black, and a flare leg in blue, a flare leg in black (it is really hard to find a black flare leg).  No "destruction" which I am too old to find appealing, when I see jeans like that I remember my Dad's old yard work jeans. $5 each so I got them.  

Even with a ride I had a hard time stuffing them in a bag and getting them home, because I like the hanger.  So I have a decent amount of size smaller/14's now.  I did clean eating yesterday.  

I was hungry and craving something bad before I started work so I bought a pound of lunch meat and some sliced cheese and had THAT for a snack.  And my weight is down today so it was the right call.  I am at about 190.6 today I had gotten up to 193.  

I need to be very strict about cheats.  I am thinking to only have a cheat when I do a Bible Handout.  I also got more sliced cheese so I can make more sandwiches. I use the high fiber "keto" bread which is just fiber and 3 carbs after that, no funny business on the label like the frankenfoods. 

Work was fine. I was even kidding around a little with my boss.  I asked her if she wanted me to take something to the back.  She asked if I WANTED to. I told her "I'll do it for you!" with a grin and she liked that.  

I need to get ready for the Bible Handout. I did my Bible study.  

It's very important for me that I purge out all the pride before I go out there; God's not going to bless anything if I go out with a haughty spirit saying "God is lucky to have me doing His work".  That will end badly.  

I want to go out there with a soft and loving heart wanting to share the wonderful gift I have in Him, with people living in hard times. I want to take the right material and exist in His will, not mine.  I can't do anything on my own. I'm a flawed sinner. But I have Someone and I want to share Him. 

I need to go out like that; that's vital, especially as pride comes along because it IS such a bad area. "I'm the only one who will go" and other nonsense like that. God can raise up anyone to evangelize that area. I am completely replaceable.  I ask God to help me with this. 

And, having asked, it's done so I need to go take my shower.  

 Almost done.  I asked God to keep me humble today and one of my cases of Bibles is stuck in my cart at a crooked angle.  That'll do it!