Thursday morning

 I slept pretty well last night, woke up early, and laid in bed for an hour with the cats purring at me.  A nice way to start the day.  Then I got up and fed them.  

I had lost track of my budget, I knew I had paid most of my bills, my doctor visit, etc. but now much did I have left?  I have a good amount so that's good.  

I just need to decide if I want to use olive oil for cooking and take Vitamin E for a couple of weeks before I get my blood test, or not.  I would like to have the best cholesterol numbers possible considering I am doing keto and everyone thinks high fat diets are the devil.  So I will probably wait.  I will get the olive oil in a few days.  I am also using lard I keep in the fridge, for cooking.  It works pretty well it is the "Manteca" style a block of lard wrapped in paper.  

Mood is pretty good I took a caffeine pill, but I will REALLY be happy when the mood stabilizers come in.  I always feel more secure with a couple months' of sanity on hand.  And I know I am very fragile and would break quickly without medication.  So I am diligent.  I already put some in the non-cold part of my lunch bag for tonight.  

I am looking forward to trying that taco casserole I think that will be really good, and I could stand to work some beans into my diet.  I have about a half cup beans in each portion, 4 ounces ground turkey, and 1/4c cheese.  I am not really crazy about salsa.  

Growing up my Dad preferred (still does) VERY bland food with minimal seasonings so that is all I ate.  I am an anomaly in that I like Indian food.  But I don't like salsa or guacamole although I do like "taco" flavors like you get in the packet or my large canister (which has been a really good bargain, I will definitely buy another one).  I don't even like onions.  I guess I am my father's daughter although I was thinking I might get one of those little bottles of red wine to fix myself my next pot roast.  I think that might be good.  My last pot roast was tasty but very bland.  I need to put some broth or wine in the crock pot.  Maybe both.  And more salt.  I am always timid with the salt.  

I won't drink any of the wine, just put some in the roast and pour the rest out.  

I need to buy some more cat food, I opened my reserve.  So I need to think about what day I will do that.  Since I get off early on Sunday I may do it then and just pay for a ride home, according to my budget I can do that.  I could also get that large olive oil as well and maybe some more eggs as it's hard to take them home on the bus.  Too bouncy.  

I did all the laundry so my favorite jeans are ready to go.  I have 3 or so pair I really like with good pockets, that fit well.  I am not sure if they will still fit me at goal or not, depends I think if "goal" is 170 or 160.  I plan to do 170 for now though.  Take a month at maintenance and decide if I want to go down to 160.  Right now I am at a maintainer level even though I am eating fewer calories and macros than that, so I may continue to lose.  I just want the room to eat more if needed during the holidays, bringing my own lunch, etc.  It was a real killer working those 6 days in a row I was eating about 200 calories more a day than I wanted.  That's why I adjusted.  

I would also like to get some good quality coconut oil to eat by the spoon.  I am open to suggestions so hit me in the comments with good brand names.  I am not getting enough fat some days and that would be a good way to do it.  I looked into fat bombs but they all seem to have chocolate or nut butters in them which I can't do; so I will have to do plain coconut oil.  

I am really glad management fixed my schedule it makes me feel like they give a damn and they are willing to work with me.  Makes me more eager to go in and give them a good day.  But from a practical standpoint I don't think they would be able to find a responsible worker, early every day, over 20 years of retail experience, willing to work nights AND weekends.  Part time with no benefits.  Not likely.  

I promised Dad I would look into Obama Care on my next day off so we will see how that goes.  I hope I can find a basic plan that does not bankrupt me.  Some times I don't make a lot of money and a $100 a month or whatever fee would be too much.  But we'll see.  Even just a catastrophic plan would be good.  

Two of my Rapture Ready friends developed cancer this year and one of them is terminal.  Something to think about.   

I hope I die of a heart attack.  What I saw with Ron it was quick and peaceful.  

Enough about that; getting ready to go to work.  It was nice starting the day with the cats I set my alarm early for tomorrow, too.  I do wonder how Spotty is the only cat at a good weight around here.  The other 2 are butterballs.  And obese cats don't live as long.  As near as I can figure someone else is feeding them.  

Eventually (when I have the money) I want to chain-link the cat enclosure so they can go out but not roam anymore.  I will have to get some quotes on that.  

That's it for now.  It is warmer out so I have a cold pack in with my candy today. 

Oh, and I'm going to run this by you and ask opinions.  I am thinking about losing down to 155 so I can say I lost 100 pounds.  What do you think?  I could probably do it eating this way I find it easy and I have enough carbs to keep me happy.  No frankenfoods.  Just real stuff.  

Let me know what you think.