Still on the downward slide

I was 198.8 yesterday today I am 198.  So that means down 3 pounds in the last week.  I find it interesting my app adjusts my daily calories based on my weight.  There is a "premium" feature in there it can adjust things as I get closer to goal and I told it yes.  

And I ate really horribly last week, honey bun, sheet cake, makes me wonder what it would have been had I eaten more on plan BUT not going to beat myself up.  The goal is to arrive at a place where I have the tools to maintain the weight.  In the past I have not done that, easy off, easy on.  And I think it is important to learn how to have one exception now and then and get back on the plan.  I have not been good at that in the past.  

Hopefully I will never sit on the couch with that awful can of frosting and a spoon, watching TV.  Oh that had nothing good for me in there.  And sadly the cans of frosting are cheap.  A premium pint of keto ice cream was about $5 when I got it, the frosting is about $2.  

Don't be like me and eating the frosting.  I am lucky I am not diabetic.  

That is one thing I talked to Dad about, he is a type 2 diabetic.  Another reason I want to be smart with my eating.  My brother is a type one, my Dad is a type 2, that is not good DNA.  I am already insulin resistant.  Dad is embarrassed he has to have his toenails trimmed and feet checked out every couple months by a MD.  He calls the guy his toenail doctor.  That is so important if you are diabetic because a lot of do-it-yourself foot care ends up in an amputation and I told Dad that, how many times I had ridden paratransit with a diabetic with a fresh amputation and how awful it was.  Mom was like "Preach it girl!" and Dad actually listened because I'm not the wife.  

No man ever listens to the wife!  

So he has been doing that and I am very happy for him.  Medicare pays for this apparently.  But I will tell Dad if he needs it more often than the every 2 months I will pay for it myself.  It is really important.  I am happy he felt like he could talk about it with me. 

Now my aunt trims all the hair in the family she is the only one goes to a hair dresser and even then has a simple hair style with no color or perm.  She looks great.  So do the men whose hair she does.  You would never guess.  Something like that you can do at home (and she trimmed my hair some time back) but not your feet.  

I plan to avoid diabetes but if I get it I will be seeing a specialist with my Medicare.  Especially as I work on my feet every day and stand a lot at the bus stop coming and going from work.  It is really important to baby my feet.  

If it matters I have bare feet in the house.  I love bare feet.  That has been a problem with the fire ant issue which is still ongoing.  I don't go barefoot outside anymore after I stepped on a wasp.  It lived but stung me pretty good on the arch of my foot; and the next day I had to walk around all over because I had a soda delivery.  That was unpleasant.  I found the lavender essential oil to be better for the sting then the baking soda everyone was suggesting.  

I never do heels.  I have a pair of flats and a couple pairs of sneakers for work and that is it.  I think I also have a very old pair of sandals running around somewhere as well. I am just not that into shoes unless it is a good pair of sneakers for work.  Happily I can wear sneakers for work.  

I have some time before I need to leave and I just plan to make tuna for my dinner tonight.  The tuna holds up well in my lunch bag and is very filling.  I found some dill pickle relish yesterday in the pantry and tried that it was pretty good in the tuna.  

Tomorrow I will probably cook up some sausage before work and take that for my dinner.  We will see how I feel; I have plenty of tuna.  

I plan to wear my "frumpy" (oversized, dark) jeans today and tomorrow and then I think I can wear the cute jeans without worries about leakage.  I can bend over a lot doing my job so I don't want to give someone an eyeful, but things are about done with my cycle.  Day 2 is always the most exciting and I had to work that day, but I made it.  Thank God for those ultra tampons.  I am up to day 5 now so about done.  I seem to be every 5-6 weeks now.  I wonder how long that will go, although I can't discount I had one two weeks after the last, a few months ago.  Irregular to say the least.  

That's it for now I will post more before I leave the house in a couple of hours.  

I made up my tuna and had my protein shake.  I need to do up my pills because I can't remember if I took my antidepressant.  If I guess wrong and take it again I will have a seizure so I will take my shower, do my God time, get dressed, and then do up the pills, at least the antidepressants.  That's not something I want to play with.  It doesn't matter if I skip a day I have been fine in the past.  

I had better get going.   

Pretty much ready to go but had forgotten something: on Monday I was unable to log out.  Is that going to mess up me logging in today?  Will I need to go to a manager for help on that?  Will I find a manager?  We will see.  Nothing I can do about it right now.  

Hopefully they had fixed the problem that kept me from logging out.  Apparently someone was digging and cut an internet line.  They couldn't run the registers it was pretty crazy.  I am sure that is fixed by now.  

But anxiety wants to take over and have me freaking at DEFCOM 10 all day.  Or whatever the highest level is.  

I am going to get dressed and do up my candy.  That's done.  I also checked the work app and it said logged out so I am encouraged.  God is so much bigger than any one of my petty problems.  Ron used to say "My 'Believer' is broken" and that's a good description.  I need to work on that.  

I did not have enough time to do up my pills for the whole 3 weeks so I decided to do it up for tomorrow and put that container on top.  So I have a "Friday" antidepressant all ready to go.  I take my PM medication to work with me and take it with my lunch.  It works.  I don't like to take it too early as it makes me very thirsty and that can be a problem working retail.  

Ideally I will get some protein powder before work I am almost out, and I feel it helps.  More protein is always a good thing when I have tracked my food before it was always lacking.  One scoop = 30 grams so that is pretty good.  And I don't have any problems with it and it is affordable.  If they have it in stock I will buy some.  A lot of the premade shakes give me bad headaches.  

I talked to Jack he is coming tonight, and I remembered to bring my money so I can pay him.  I keep transportation money separate from my money.  But I always keep a $20 in with my money in case I get jammed up somewhere and need a ride.  My standard ride is about $20.  But I pay more if it is the cab driver taking me home from Walmart, like last week with the 3 cases of water, 2 five gallon buckets, etc.  

Interestingly enough I believe my cousin was able to catch a bus ride to Houston from Dallas area for about $20 it just goes to show it is all relative.  I think I will talk to management tonight once I get everything sorted out and see about that time off request for September.  Dad needs to buy me the ticket in advance or it gets very expensive.  And I need to know so I can figure out what I am doing with the cats.  

I will not be posting during that time but will have someone checking on my house.  I wonder if Jack could feed the cats.  He is not a cat person but he just has to put down food and water for them and make sure everything is OK with the house... I will talk to him.  Once I know what is happening.  

Oops I did not post this yesterday.