Very early Saturday

 Another one of my team leads is picking up the bullying/personal attack thing.  I am very glad I mentioned this during the anonymous employee survey.  I understand *this* team lead has a lot of personal issues but, as a Target supervisor told me once a good 30 years ago "You don't bring it to work".  

And I practice that; 2 days after Ron died I was stocking vending machines and did not say anything until asked, point blank, how he was doing.  I continued to work as I talked about it.  It is sad, though, everyone used to like her.  I don't know if it's just me or she's doing it to others.  No one has said anything to me and I won't mention it.  

That, I think, is the unspoken issue with being meek.  People tend to think I'm weak.  Generally I won't "stand up for myself" I will walk away because I don't want to get in a verbal altercation especially with a supervisor.  But that doesn't make it OK to dump on me.  

It's really ironic I doubt any of the people who treat me badly would do so if they knew I was bipolar!  

She was angry because I did not take my lunch until 7.  There was no one to give me a lunch, including her and the other team lead.  If there is no one to cover I can't go.  

Sometimes I think if I date the man's going to have issues; me riding the bus (safety), me doing Bible Handouts (safety!), and me working at the store (verbal abuse).  

I slept OK for me.  I didn't see the cats much last night but they are home today.  I got the henna started at 6.  This is how I did the Henna today: 

1, five ounce packet, henna powder

1 cup warm water

3/4 cup apple cider vinegar 

Juice of one lemon

4 drops lavender essential oil (to help with the henna smell, and I also read it helps develop the color)

I added a little more water to moisten as I was stirring it but that's just personal and I won't put that in the recipe.  I will let it develop, covered, in a warm place for 4-5 hours and then apply to clean, dry, hair.  I will wash it with clarifying shampoo only, no conditioner or styling/leave in products.  Once it's applied I cover it with plastic wrap and a shower cap, let process for 4 hours, wash out with water and plain conditioner.  I will not shampoo it for 48 hours or until Monday morning.  

It has a very strong grassy odor until I shampoo it so I'm going to try the lavender oil.  I also have a moderate headache and lavender is supposed to be good with pain issues.  

I'll keep you posted!  I got some clips and things at work so it should be an easier application today.