I slept OK last night, didn't wake up with a headache. But I woke up depressed. I had a hard time getting my shower and doing my God Time. It's sapped my joy and motivation for the day.
I always wonder how much is "circumstances" and how much is just organic. It's hard to say. Even if I lost Ron just losing him would cause a depression. So, no way to know. I tend to get depressed in April, anyway.
I ate some yogurt (I didn't feel like cooking) and took my pills. Biscuit started begging for dry food and his bowl was empty, so I filled it.
Torbie has stayed on the top shelf of Ron's kitty condo, all day. I told Ron she must be stuck because she hasn't moved, all day. She seems very happy up there so I just petted her a little now and then (she has such a fluffy tummy!), and left her alone the rest of the time.
I took a nap, Ron was quiet. I had a dream I was practicing witchcraft and it really freaked me out. I apologized to God when I woke up a little and went back to sleep, but I was working on a headache. I got up and took some Excedrin.
Excedrin has caffeine so I was still depressed, but with a little more energy. I cleaned up a little, I walked around picking up stuff that is obviously trash. It's not much but it helps. I try to do what I can, when I can, and keeping busy helps with the depression.
Ron has stayed in bed all day, except for getting up to drink, and use the bathroom. He reminds me of Torbie.
I think I will take the girl cats some fish treats (Baby Girl, I think, is at her front window), just to give them a little something special. They are good cats and I enjoy spoiling them.
Boy, I'm glad I don't have kids. Times like this I would make a lousy mother.
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Before i left home i was bed ridden with depression, i have so much empathy for you! That was an eye opener for sure to how physicall as well as mentally drepession can be . You are such a strong woman .
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