I can't stand people who talk about PTSD they have it from not being picked first in gym class in the 3rd grade, or they "milk" it to get more attention...
But I do have it and having a MAJOR flare right now. Can you say "Hyper vigilance?" Reliving the event, etc. I am already on medication this is just going to take a little time. Ugh. Also have "reliving the event". I can't really avoid Ron. Disrupted sleep and flashbacks, yes.
He gets some of this and has been really good about taking the medication. And has tolerated it well. But I woke up 2 times last night, once to help him another time I thought he was having a seizure. And once this morning he was just making noise but it sounded like he was about to "go". I remind myself this is going to wind down, it will just take a while.
In the meantime I am doing the everyday things, helping Ron, changing the sheets, laundry, etc. If I just sit around wringing my hands it won't be good.
Needless to say I have been practicing my faith on a regular basis. Every day I do my prayer and Bible study. Yesterday I did the prayer part after we got home but I did get it. I had done the Bible study first in the morning. I figured it was more important to hear what God was saying.
And I am TIRED I think I will take an early nap once this load of clothes is done. I washed all my clothes after going out yesterday and I had some already.
I am happy to see Ron has been sleeping well since he started on the medication. His blood pressure in the hospital was about 200/125 so we had to get that down, not to mention stopping the seizures.
And there's my washer.
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