Sunday, February 23, 2014

A lot of rope

I had trouble sleeping last night, worried about work.  When I got up I took my shower.  Ron woke up and chatted with me. 

I've told you how I read a book, stating it's best to wait 5 minutes or so before bringing up negative topics.  I told Ron I had been having a hard time, and he was a good cheerleader.  It was nice to see him being a spiritual leader. 

Our pastor went on about that today for a bit during the sermon.  It's important for the husband to be a spiritual leader. 

In my case, I've been feeding myself with my God Time every day. 

So, we got dressed and went to church.  We had a straight trip and a really nice young driver.  He was a cat lover so I asked him all about his "baby". 

We got to Starbucks and waited on our ride.  I got out my tablet and connected to Wi-fi.  I have been trying, for a while now, to connect to the Google Play store and download a couple of apps.  I'm sure you had an easy time.  I did not. 

I figured out part of it today:  my tablet keyboard is apparently set for wierd characters I only remember from phonics.  Once I verified I was really entering the right characters I was able to get in.  Now to find, and download.  That took a while I master. 

At the end of it, though, I downloaded Kingsoft Office and a listmaking app.  I think both will be incredibly useful for work.  I can make spreadsheets, inventory lists, etc. 

I had hoped to download a blog app but I didn't have time.  I turned off the tablet and put it away.  I also have to say, if the logins are as exasperating as they were today, I probably won't be mobile blogging!

Now, that could just be me.  I will say, I'm medicated.  I have brain damage.  And while I can reprogram a point of sale message on a vending machine some of the new tech can be a challenge. 

We went to church. 

It was a good time, we had a BBQ after.  They had lovely chilis (I got the turkey black bean) and a couple types of cornbread.  I adore cornbread. 

Someone had made an interesting custard with pecans and pineapple in it.  It was a lot better than you'd think.  I gobbled mine up. 

We brought a variety pack of chips. If they didn't all get eaten they can save some for later. 

Then we went back.  Our ride arrived right after we did, and another straight trip. 

Since I slept badly, I decided to take a nap when we got home.  I did that.  When I woke up Ron was very angry.  Apparently he was upset the recycle bag was almost full. 

I don't appreciate verbal abuse.  I really don't appreciate it when I'm asking you to stop or "let" me leave the room, and you don't.  I need to talk to Ron at a future point, about standing in doorways.  He just kept going, like a train, rolling over all my objections. 

I know how it will go tomorrow.  He'll "forgive" me, and emphasize how his bad behavior stems directly from the almost-full recycle bag and my failure to empty it.  It's what he believes. 

It's not true.  There's no excuse to act like that. 

I have to say, I would give him a LOT of rope, if this stemmed just from the accident.  He has a frontal lobe injury, that's documented. I spoke to specialists and I saw his films.  Frontal lobe damage can cause abusive behavior. 

BUT

He was like this before the accident.  Let me tell you, I'd be a happy little martyr without that fact.  But, it's true. 

Ron can just be a butthead sometimes. 

So, now I'm left with trying to round up dinner.  When I get upset my digestion goes to hell and I made the bad choice to drink some lemonade.  My cottage cheese went out of code a week ago.  I'm not putting that in my body. 

So, I'm left with finding something that won't make me queasier, so I can eat and take my pills. 

If I weren't medicated I'd just skip dinner altogether. 

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ironic that this episode happened after Church. I guess he needs to listen more.

Melanie said...

Oh Heather, your mention of cornbread has given me a sudden and irresistable craving for Mexican cornbread so now I have to make some! I'd love to find a "main dish" type Mexican cornbread recipe-you know, something like adding seasoned ground beef to it, making it a deep dish casserole-style entree,or something along those lines. Have you ever heard of such a thing,and have a recipe you could share? It would be greatly appreciated! Maybe layer the ingredients?

Otherwise, I will just experiment with seasoned Mexican-stye ground beef, or shredded chicken,or something like that, perhaps with a queso cheese sauce and guacamole or picante, and sour cream, shredded lettuce on the side. It seems that the trick will be getting the cornbread to hold up to "shape" and give structure to the other ingredients.

You seem to be a great cook, any ideas? The flavors, at any rate,seem to be made for each other :) It's the "science" of cooking that can trip me up, ie not having such a recipe turn into a mushy mess

Melanie said...

I find that when I'm nauseated (which happens often with my strong gag reflex), the thing which helps most are snowballs, all-fruit posicles (like Edies for instance) and those yogurt sticks, which I freeze. Also, a real Coke-the Mexican bottled ones, which still use cane sugar, unlike US bottled ones, which use corn syrup. I try to limit them to my nausea episodes,so that they won't lose their effectiveness (plus I don't need the sugar on a regular basis).

Heather Knits said...

I don't have any ideas about the cornbread. When I make it I use the skillet recipe and cook it in the big iron skillet. Yum, yum. Lots of butter in the pan, then add the mix. Good thing I don't have any mix!