Sunday, December 5, 2010

He's ugly today. Selfish; told him. Waiting outside; better than the ranting. Very sad; only God gives me the grace to stay. He is so bitter and toxic; cant see all the blessings. Iwonder how God will change him or if he w/b the cross I bear.

1 comment:

Heidi said...

I wish you had a pastor or someone you could talk to outside the family ..outside the internet just someone you knew ..could be objective and trusted for faith related guidence
this is not fair and he will kill himself ..but you are right bottom line you can pray for others but the only person you are really responsible for is YOURSELF

anyway I have no wise words but my heart aches for you and I think of you all the time ..

i am hoping once his health issues kick into his brain maybe he will change his behaviors..he thinks he has no control but like you with your Bipolar you find your baseline and then work with it to live the best life you can

I learned that from you and I am way older! see you always learn!

love and hugs ..I hope this passes soon