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Last night I had a nightmare. I was stuck in a concentration camp (life). I was being tortured. I was begging God to save me.
Then, Ron calls me. Tells me an earthquake hit DC.
I felt like God was telling me, He knows I'm huring, hang in there, it won't be long now.
Now's a good time to ask if you have a kit. If you don't, you should. Disaster will come regardless, and I am sick of people "joking"ly telling me they're just coming to my house.
Disaster Kit list
2 comments:
Earthquakes and natural disasters are not God created. These things just happen, but God does use events like this to draw people closer to him.
I am so very sorry you are hurting but waiting for the rapture is no way to live your life. What if you are wrong and there is no rapture? Do you really want to be stuck living life this way until you die?
Change is never easy but the life you have right now is killing you and taking extra medication to cope with this untenable situation will do your body harm. Regardless of the fact that your doctor has given the Okay on upping the dosage. What happens when they won't increase the dosage?
Put Ron in a 30 day program. If insurance will cover it I would make it a requirement for Ron. Who cares if it doesn't make a difference because he doesn't want to admit that he has a problem at least you will have a month of peace to decide what you want to do with the rest of your life.
I once wrote a poem, I'll read it one day. "If I die tomorrow". The gist of it is, if I die tomorrow, I'm happy I did a lot of things I wanted to do. If I die at 80, I know I'll feel the same.
I can safely say I have knocked about everything off my "bucket list" - except for the "Eat it and it's free" giant steak challenge.
I am taking very moderate doses of medication. For the antidepressant, half a maximum dose, now 1/4. For the Lithium, about half. I'm not sure on the antipsychotic but doc did say I could take another if I was having hallucinations.
Ron won't "rehab" unless he wants it. Doing anything without his consent will just backfire. Guaranteed.
He is letting me sleep at night, no dramas, no messes. His only big request today, is some of my "delicious tuna". I can live with that.
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