A better blogger

My hit counter is exploding.  I've gone from 7 thousand hits a month to 20K.  It's boggling. 

It also puts some pressure. 

Am I showing God's love?  Am I being a good witness? 

I felt like such a shit when I realized I had done a whole long Monday blog and I hadn't mentioned God, my faith, or God Time. 

My faith is a big part of me, should it be a bigger part of my blog?  I did do my God Time, by the way, after I woke up from my nap and fed Biscuit. 

I feel like I should be doing more evangelism.  But when?  Things have been crazy and will get more so as we get closer to Christmas and our busy season. 

I don't feel I am an "engaging" blogger.  I don't even read other blogs.  In fact, I blocked one FB friend; her only contribution to my news feed was reposting Matt Walsh blogs and saying "Yeah, what he said".  It got tiresome.  If I wanted to read Matt Walsh I'd be reading him, right? 

Some would say I suffer from low self esteem.  I think it's just depression.  It's hard to find value in myself when I'm depressed.  Yes, I can give you a list of my accomplishments (running that half marathon is going to be near the top).  I can give you a list of my virtues, loyalty being very near the top.  But I don't see the point. 

Maybe I should do a "Meet the cats" blog and introduce everyone, share their rescue stories.  I'm getting so many new readers they might find it fun. 

At the end of it, the blog is essentially me.  What you see is exactly what you get.  I try to hide my more unpleasant features but they come out in my writing anyway. 

You see my pain, my struggles, my triumphs (like rescuing 3 cats, and running the business while Ron recovered from his back surgery).  You experience bad writing and grammar as I deal with my medication. 

And, whoever you are, you seem to like it.  I will keep being "real" because that's what got you here. 

I just hope people aren't putting me up on Facebook and saying "Yeah, what Heather said". 

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