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I'm not the naive kid who first got online. 

My first email was from a nice person who said they remembered me from high school.  Didn't mention the school, and looking back I realized a few other things.  "Click here" it said, so I did, and boy I got an eyeful. 

The last professional report written about my prospects stated "Heather is extremely naive and trusting, due to her disability".  It made me very angry, but in all honesty, true.  I've had to toughen up over the years, though. 

For instance, the alcoholic who kept bothering me after the Bible Handout - I ignored him because I will not promote addiction.  If I won't escort my own husband to the liquor store, why would I share my hard earned money so you can go buy another "40" (ounce beer)? 

I don't operate that way.  I see myself as fairly cynical.  I don't click on links.  I give to organizations, not people. 

However, something tonight truly shocked me.  I looked up a meme (photo with a funny caption) on google.  I found it, and also found an X rated one depicting a sex act.  I even went back later to verify that yes, I had seen that. 

Well, I thought, maybe my internet search filter is off.  I clicked on "safe search".  You know what's sad?  I got MORE hits for the porno meme than I had in regular search. 

I closed that window, literally, happy I do not have children.  It would be very difficult to keep children pure and innocent in this world, where a harmless search for a catchphrase produces a filthy image. 

I have no problem with sex.  God created it for the marriage bed, not the internet.  It's supposed to be one aspect of a lifelong commitment, not a quick jolt with a stranger. 

I don't watch porn.  It ruins lives.  I am sure a lot of men enjoyed the image, and some women, too. 

I don't often agree, outright, with Ron's "The World is going to hell" philosophy, and I avoid the news. 

Tonight, though, I got a big slap of reality: this world is filthy. 

Glad I don't have kids.  Glad!