It's OK if you talk about me
I truly strive to be humble but numbers like that make it hard. I only share it because I want to make a point, people are reading my story, and, I must assume, some of them are talking about my story.
And that's OK.
Years ago, I was enraged when I found out the Rabble Rousers message board was talking about me. I had quite a tantrum and they stopped following me.
I'm sorry I did that. Maybe, sigh, I could have inspired?
Maybe that's just ego but I wonder.
A friend of mine sent me a link with some comments he made about my marriage. He was worried I would be upset at his analysis. I read it, it all seemed pretty accurate, so I let him know it was OK. His tone was respectful, but he didn't pull any punches.
Seeing my marriage laid out like that was a little arresting, but, like I said, he was honest.
I know some of my readers talk. That is OK. I know some of you think I'm a fool, and you want to slap me. I guess some of you may have a more positive viewpoint.
Like I said, I hope I can inspire, and show that God can help you through anything. At worst, I hope you roll back in your desk chair and say "At least I don't have it that bad".
So, it's OK if you want to talk. I put all this out here to be read. I think that would be the worst thing, if no one cared enough to read it.
That's one of the things that keeps me going, knowing that some of you out there are pulling for me, cheering me on, and cringing when things go badly. Your sympathy after various cat passings really helped ease the pain. Sympathy when I'm sick, or depressed, goes a long way.
I have come to you for the sustenance I can't get at home. I hope you don't mind.
It's OK to talk, if you were worried about it.