"Grandfather waves"

Today I went to go see my P-Doc (aka Psychiatrist, the MD who deals with my brain). He's an awesome dude, I love him to death.

This morning, we went to Ikea, had some breakfast, I did a little shopping (accidentally bought a FLAT sheet instead of fitted, agh!). I got some organizer stuff, came home, good trips. Went to see my Doc. Pretty obvious to me and Ron all day that yeah, I'm still pretty manic (even on the reduced antidepressant).

We ate at the wonderful deli in the building where my doctor has his offices, and the Doc had some great recommendations for me:

• Increase my Lithium.
• Get a Lithium level blood test.
• Keep taking reduced antidepressant.
• Increase antipsychotic (which works awesomely).

I call him in a week, and see him in about a month. My hands are shaking a little more and I didn't eat enough with the 600 mg dose I took with "dinner" but I am very happy. I already feel a lot better and that mental "itchiness" and compulsive talking is gone.

So, tonight I get on my knees and thank God for my husband, my doctor, and living in a time when we have the pills to manage my illness (and the fact that I can afford the doctor and the pills).

And the title? Well, the Doc says "Sometimes you don't have regular mood shifts, you get a monster 'Grandfather' wave that really tries to pick you up or pull you under." He was happy I sensed this was "out of order" and called him.