When I was a young teen, I was placed on an antidepressant. Like a lot of other young teens, I felt I was "fat" at 115 pounds (67 inches tall), and talked about "dieting".
Well, the antidepressant had an interesting side effect: anorexia, a lack of appetite. Of course my therapists felt I was anorexic, the eating disorder. I wasn't. I just wasn't hungry. Even when I was hungry, I wasn't hungry, it's hard to explain. Hungry, I felt as though I'd already eaten a large meal.
This persisted for years, until the antidepressant was discontinued. It didn't work that well, anyway.
Well, I seem to have a paradigm shift in my side effects, because it's back: anorexia. I find myself forcing myself to eat, gagging down an energy bar, or a modest portion of salad with a serving of protein, at dinner time.
Results are impressive, I've lost about 15 pounds in less than a month. Will this last, I don't know.
I was a little worried, because I know lack of appetite can signify serious problems, especially when paired with significant weight loss. What to do?
I looked it up, and sure enough, "anorexia" is listed as a side effect in 75% of my medication side effects. Huh. Explains a lot.
Why now? I wasn't that sick, I don't think. I'm not complaining. "I feel like" I told Ron "I had a gastric bypass". I just don't enjoy eating. I gag it down because I have to, because I need it to take my medication and I need fuel for my body. I need building blocks to build immunity and such.
It's just odd. I've gone from snacking and hunger all the time, to satiety and weight loss. Very odd. I am making a point to put healthy things in my mouth and eat "balanced" - very reduced carbs, plenty of lean protein, and lots of salad. Well, lots for me, maybe 3 cups a day?
I eat it with an olive oil and vinegar dressing, that seemed pretty close to natural. I can certainly sidestep chemicals.
Of course I feel like a total whore writing this as I make my living in junk food.
Ron had a good birthday today. We woke up, I did my God time and shower, went to the mall, and got him his favorite takeout. I had Chik-fil-a, a grilled sandwich with cheese and bacon. It was very juicy and good.
I actually enjoyed eating that.
We came home and I had a pretty good nap. Biscuit joined me in bed. Interestingly enough, Biscuit and Gravy don't like people food, except for one thing: cheese sticks. They adore them. They bite and lick the sticks as I hold them in my hand. So, I bite off a little segment and offer it to them. They eat that off to the side, leaving the rest of my cheese stick unmolested.
Just a little glimpse at my life.
Ron didn't want a cake. He didn't want to go out to dinner. He just wanted some takeout, which we got.
He slept a lot and drank a little, I'm sure, but he was quiet.
He did carry on a lot about my weight which I found odd, considering I have lost a lot. My clothing size is pretty much the same but that's OK, I just want to get the weight off my systems and joints.
That can only be a good thing.
2 comments:
Happy Birthday to Ron!
I've lurked on rr-bb for years (I'm not a member, but feel i know so many there) i noticed you hadn't posted in a while and did a Google search and well, heres your blog! I just want to say thst you have been an inspiration to myself and so many others. Keep up the great service you provide to the Lord!
Also, u should drop by rr, lot of people miss u there and are praying for you and ron (even people u dont know, like myself)
Thanks,
Sc
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