I'm pretty groggy right now, so please forgive any incoherence or typos.
I slept pretty well, considering. I think a dog might have been dumped in our neighborhood, the dog that lives behind us has been rather agitated at night. Bubba-cat was all cute in the bed with me, so it wasn't him.
I love sleeping with the cat. Something about the big cuddly lump all warm and soft, just puts me out. I tend to have better dreams, too. If I wake up, I can reach over for some quick petting before I go back to sleep.
Anyway, overslept, caught up on God Time later. We went to Walmart. I got a great deal on some clearance "Halloween" candy that appears perfectly everyday; great for handouts. I got a couple bags' worth. I noticed they had already started stocking the Christmas candy.
I love to hand out some kind of chocolate, but I can't if the temperatures are above 70 or so, they melt. I might be able to do it if I weren't on public transit, but whatever I hand out has to survive ambient temperatures.
My pills were just weird. The phenergan generic only cost $7, so I went ahead and got it. That's 30 migraines' worth. God forbid I need it. It turns out the "prescriber" (a medical resident), wrote ONE month refills, times 3, for my medication. That means an extra $10 a month.
However, I could use a little help with the budget; and breaking it up into 3 payments could be useful. I'll make sure to phone in the refill before I need it.
Later, at home, I read the inserts. Turns out one of my medications doesn't like decongestants. Whoo! Good thing to know! I don't take decongestants, anyway, because they trigger mania. The rest was all pretty standard. They had so many pregnancy warnings I was glad Ron's fixed. If something happens to him, I'm getting fixed.
We came home, later on went to Starbucks. We got stuck there a while, but it wasn't bad. I made sure our empty cups were obvious. About the time I got out my Kindle, the ride arrived.
I'm glad I can do the sample feature for the Kindle. I had downloaded a sample of a highly-rated zombie book. I managed to read 5 pages before I gave up. Ick. The author made it completely boring. I am so, so, glad, I didn't buy it. In the meantime, "Zombiestan" was so good I bought it after reading 2 sample pages (the sample was a lot longer).
I didn't have enough time to make my bank deposit today, I'll have to do it next week (they don't start clearing until the 13th). After we got home, I took a nap.
I had a profoundly disturbing nightmare, just like I did yesterday. I may skip the naps for a bit.
I got up right before "Wild Kingdom" next door started playing. [laugh] I saw the flying soccer ball a few times, too, along with the father fetching it out of "my" yard.
I was feeling very ugly. I realized it was pill time. It was a little early, but it was clearly pill time. I just felt so hostile and irritated, one of those horrible mixed episodes with a big slap of depression on top. Yuck.
I had a small pity party for a while, and then had a thought. We have about 300 million Americans. About 1% of the population, anywhere, is bipolar (worldwide). That means, I and 2,999,999 other Americans are suffering from bipolar disorder. None of us will "recover" - we can just go into remission. We are all sucking up horrendous side effects, headaches, nausea, fatigue, brain fog. We are eaten by our own minds, on a regular and ongoing basis. We endure, and try to keep it from affecting other people.
God knows, I'm sure not alone. I felt a lot better.
I ate something I liked, took my medication, did my God Time, and by the time I finished I felt a lot better.
3 million. That's a lot. We're a very large family.
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