Lunch was better than I expected.

 I have a lot of problems when depressed.  Generally, with rare exceptions, I can work but taking care of myself at home can be difficult.  

Food, for instance (by the way the raw chicken is good for over a week), I lack the motivation to cook for myself.  Even at my worst I could still get something for Ron.  It takes a lot of bandwidth, it feels, to look around my kitchen and figure out "I want to eat this".  

I'm not saying this for any other reason than to open a door.  I always felt so alone with my depression until I got online and it seemed like every other person had it.  So maybe it helps someone reading this.  Or maybe not.  I won't know until God shows me one way or another.  

So it's lunch time and I need to eat something.  I have raw food.  I don't want that.  I looked in the fridge, shredded cheese, corn tortillas, and half a can of salsa.  I can make something with that.  Then I saw the can of spicy refried beans on the counter.  

I like my beans with a little kick but nothing that would set anyone on fire.  So I put it all together and made bean tacos, beans on the corn tortilla, topped with the cheese and warmed up, topped with salsa.  Lots of protein and fiber.  I have leftover refried beans to put with my eggs later.  It was very, very, good, the salsa and the beans together were fantastic.  

I need to get some more salsa after work one day (I have more at the house but only one can).  I have a couple cans each of the beans I like, the spicy refried, and the spicy refried.  I love beans I just like a little seasoning in there.  

I am learning new things about myself all the time.  

Nap time.