Take two cats and call me in the morning

Today I hardly know I'm bipolar. A few side effects at work, but Ron is always very kind and considerate. Someone I know at work was asking a LOT of questions about the nature of depression and antidepressants. He is a very nice guy, but obviously depressed. I would love to think he may get some "Help" if he needs it thanks to me. It's nice when I feel like God is using my illness for a higher purpose.

Yay! I got an email from Paradise Fibers. I won their "Product Review" contest and now I have a $20 gift certificate. That's a lot of wooly fun. I'm going to consider what I'd like for a bit before I redeem it. I'm definitely thinking the navy blend merino and maybe some sari silk yarn. I could make an awesome throw pillow.

I was considering what to do in the living room; Ron likes to sit under the ceiling fan but currently that's where I have my chair. I think I"ll get a 6-foot long sofa and run it parallel to the windows (at a 90 degree angle to the front door). I'll move my chair so the back faces the front door and shift the TV slightly. That way, I've got a "Lazy lay-down spot", under the fan, that isn't "my" chair. I got some space bags today and I plan to use them. I'll sort out the too-small clothes by size, and have each size in its' own space bag. I can toss the bags in a closet or under my bed. All organized! The majority of "My clutter" is mainly too-small clothes. I also have a lot of craft stuff but it's manageable. I already have that all sorted by craft.

Ringing ears. Cool. [side effect]

We went to work today, Ron was having a bad morning, he was just really aggravated at God. He said he slept OK so I left him alone. I had a good gossip with the sandwich guy, who's very nice when you "get" him. I helped Ron by putting the sandwiches in the food machine. We had such an awesome assortment of submarine, wedge, and bun sanwiches; in a variety of delicious flavors. I would have been happy to eat any one of them. I just had to call the owner of the company and thank her. She was thrilled. I believe in letting people know they're doing a good job. If they know what you like, they can do it again. I borrowed that from Dale Carnagie - he did more to improve my social life than years of counseling. People actually like me now.

We weren't looking forward to work tomorrow. See, Ron and I live out in the county. That means fireworks. I love fireworks, we have half a table full just waiting for tonight. Our neighbors will keep us up well past midnight making it sound like a war zone. We love that, but we'd need to get up at 5 AM tomorrow just to get the milk delivery. OUCH.

About 9 AM today Ron told me he had called the milk man and rescheduled the delivery. We just need to be at work between 10 and 1 on the second. Yeehaw! That means we can sleep fairly late tomorrow.

We did make one small trip to go to work. Ron set the coffee machine on "free" today; we'll need to turn it off tomorrow. I love that I work for a generous man. He will not tolerate manipulation, but he's a good man.

Yesterday when I went to get fireworks I received the discouraging news that they didn't stock the Saturn missle rockets. You light one fuse and 25 rockets go up in the air, one after the other. The rockets are about half the size of a pencil. As each one lights, you hear a loud whistle and a BANG as the rocket explodes. They are so much fun. We got some other "Light one fuse, things go up in the air and go BANG" type items.

Today, while I was "out", I saw a fireworks stand. I walked over to the stand. YES! They had Saturn Missles. I got an even dozen, some firecrackers for Ron, and this thing that looks like an ammunition belt. It has 1,000 firecrackers on one fuse. I wish I could upload video. It's going to make a LOT of noise.

I felt like I was shopping at a fancy boutique. "Hello, I'm looking for something in a Saturn Missile, but no artillery shells (they scare the crap out of me). What have you got? Oh, does it have a report? Any screamers?" The helpful salesclerk makes suggestions and we carefully select the explosive enjoyment. I find it so fun. I'm spending money on items I'm going to light on fire. They will make a lot of noise, flashes, and bangs. Then it's done.

Now I'm feeling a little guilty about the money I spent. Once I make my deposit, I think I will set up the auto-deduct for Salvation Army and Doctors without Borders. They do GOOD work; God's work. I'm not rich (I'm wearing $10 jeans right now), but I certainly won't miss $20 a month.

In the past, I've actually gone manic for charity. One year I gave so much to a women's drug rehabilitation program that I got invited to their donor's dinner. Now, I can donate $10 a charity, per month, two charities, and be satisfied. Yeah.

Last night, I watched a pretty intense horror movie "Pitch Black". It isn't something you want to see right before you go to bed. I had about an hour before I needed to get to sleep, so I went straight from watching Riddick battle aliens to making a batch of sugar cookies. The cookies are delicious. I love all the different sides of my personality. I don't know anyone else like me.

When I got home today, we set up the fireworks on the kitchen table. I decided I'd better get my nap early, before all the excitement. Bubba the black cat was lying in my bed. He was off to one side, so I had an easy time sharing the bed with him. Once I got settled, though, he left. I was a little sad but at least I had Puppy, my stuffed toy dog. I felt something climb up in bed behind me. It's amazing the cats don't give me screaming fits with all the scary movies I watch. I turned over. Frosty was sleeping on the closet side of the bed. Awww. So cute. Mommy loves you. I lay there, reminding myself that I always fall asleep for my naps. I felt something else climb up into bed, on the other side. It was Bubba.

We slept like that for 2 hours. One cat on each side, I felt so honored and cherished. I slept great, too.

I'm going to watch "People suing each other" shows for a bit, then the Fox comedy block. Then I'll wake up Ron and we'll make some noise!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!