Saturday

So my day. I took my hand cart, I had an insulated tote bag and some cold packs. 

I found a nice pack of stew meat in the discount bin.  I held it in my hand, deliberating, for a while. It was $7 for a pound and a half (the clearance sticker obscured the weight but I used my food scale when I got home). I thought that was a good deal.  

I also got some sliced carrots (already done up).  I thought it would be good to make the stew with onions, carrots, garlic, salt, pepper, and beef stock and that's what I have in the crock pot. 

I also got another bag of Walnuts I like the store's Walnuts better than my store.  My store has a lot of chaff in the bag, smaller nuts, more "funky" nuts, and other issues.  I like a nice big, fresh, walnut.  I get those.  

I have found I absolutely adore walnuts they are my favorite.  I like pecan pie, love it in fact, but walnuts are my favorite.  I cannot do peanuts due to migraine issues and I am pretty sure I am allergic to almonds. Walnuts are full of healthy fat, protein, and fiber so a good choice.  

I got what I needed, also got some V8 cans in the 12 ounce. Good thing I had the hand cart!  

I went out to the bus after paying and went to the other store. I didn't need much there, but they had a good deal on some nice big bunches of celery for $1.20 a bunch, so I got 2 big bunches. I got 3 bags of candy to hand out including a nice bag of lollipops. 

I had a small issue; it was nice out so I wore my thrift store shorts.  They have a longer inseam and a medium rise.  And I did not like that rise.  It was too low, and came down in the back.  But I only paid about $5 for the shorts, they will work for trips out on my day off.  

We sell shorts at work, they just came in, for about $11, denim shorts, various colors, a little shorter than I would like but I will try them on in a month or so. 

It was very nice out, warm and sunny. I came home, put everything away, and took a nap with the cats. I woke up with a headache, took something, and got the stew ready in the crock pot.  I have an outlet timer that plugs into the wall so I set that up once I did up the crock pot. 

I had a sandwich for dinner (keto bread).  That's it for now. 

Saturday morning

 I didn't sleep well but I had a lot of caffeine yesterday.  I woke up with a moderate headache but am doing OK.  

I was thinking about one of my recipients yesterday.  My first route we have a lot of blue collar type workers getting off about the time I do and we all ride home together.  One guy works at a bakery.  The other day I saw him bringing treats on the bus so yesterday I said something to him.  

He politely explained he couldn't bring me treats.  I explained I didn't want them but if I wanted a baked good I would go with his because he makes them and they're good enough for HIM to eat. He laughed, I gave him some candy which he sat on the seat. 

Cab drivers have a rule only pick up someone who called for a trip, the spontaneous ones tend to be trouble. Same with the bus.  If they are at the stop with their card in hand you will not have a problem.  But the person who runs up to you will be an issue.  

So the driver was stuck at a red light and someone came running out of a gas station parking lot.  She was wearing a skimpy red dress.  Now I am biased enough to say a thin/average woman can pull that look off but an obese woman cannot. And she was very obese.  She was drunk.  She had an open container of alcohol (Four Loko).  She didn't have any money, having likely spent it all on Four Lokos.  She saw the candy and grabbed it, saying something about "the Mexican candy".  Now the candy has some Mexican names on it and is made in Mexico but it is made to American tastes and is a good value.  I have sampled it, it is something worth handing out.  I stand by my candy. So she stole the other man's candy.  

She eventually got off, spilling her drink (the man had gotten up and WELL away from her by this point), but taking the candy with her. I guess God thinks she needs salvation more than Bakery Guy,who, when I tried to give him another bag, said I had given him some last week. 

But if I had to pick I would have picked Bakery Guy.  But it's not about what I want it's what God wants me to do and let me tell you, some GNARLY people have gotten candy in the last week. 

I'm going to take a shower, do my God Time, get dressed, and do up today's candy.  That's it for now.  

Friday night

 So I have been friendly with a guy at work, an Associate, like me.  He is Latino.  He is tall, a little overweight, male pattern baldness cut very short, has a lovely smile and gorgeous eyes. I like to have a "handle" for people so I will call him Beau even though he is not French.  He is not looking for anything but he does seek me out. We enjoy chatting.  He smiles a lot.  It is nice. It is very uncomplicated.  

At some point I need to raise the issue of salvation if it gets serious because I cannot be "unequally yoked" - in a relationship with an unbeliever.  That is non negotiable.  And I don't plan on dating for another 3 years, ish. (add a few days), anyway.  But it is nice to get a little attention. 

Work was busy, that I can talk about. There is some I cannot talk about, suffice to say I was happy to get out of there. 

I saw Kato at the bus stop.  He washes windows, we chat a little. I told him things were crazy at work and he said he would rally all his homeless friends and "rampage" the store for my job back if I got fired.  Thanks, I think?  I was rather taken aback.  

First bus was uneventful.  Got off and waited with another worker bee who just wanted to get home after work; like me.  A young family showed up a baby about 10 months, two young parents.  The father was smoking but far downwind from the baby while the mother smoked pot holding the baby in her lap. The baby was coughing. That was really awful to watch. But that, my friends, is how kids end up in the foster system. Cute baby,too. 

I waited almost an hour I was really not happy about that at all. Bus finally came, I got home. I called Mom and Dad on my way home from the bus stop because it was dark and I couldn't see a damned thing due to the lack of lighting. I really want that gas station built and some GOOD lighting. Anyway I got home OK after all the neighborhood dogs barked at me. No mail. 

I got the last load of laundry started. I also have a load in the dryer. 

That's it for now. 

Friday morning

 We had a cold front blow in yesterday which mainly brought wind, it also brought me a migraine.  I kept taking Excedrin every four hours, quaffing Diet Dew, eventually I even bought a fried lemon pie and ate that which did help. It wasn't a fun day, made worse by you know who - under a lot of pressure from the district, she was snapping at everyone, and a long time hard worker confided she was going to transfer.  She loses a lot of employees to transfers and no one wants to transfer into the department.  Some leave the store altogether.  Another employee told me she is counting the days until her enlistment in the Army.  We are already down several employees, I don't know what she's going to do when they leave.  

My buddy came by to visit.  I told him he was very brave and he said he isn't scared of her.  I grinned.  What I liked about him, when she yelled at him he didn't backtalk her he just said "I'm on my break" and when she told him to leave he did.  

The last thing I need in my life is some guy all upset about his "rights" to this or that or "being disrespected".  This guy seems very even which I like.  If I date I would like to date a calm tempered easy going guy. But he did say one time he did hurt someone.  He had a cat (my friend) and a neighbor killed it, bragged about it, so my buddy went over there and taught him a lesson. That I think is acceptable.  

So maybe I will see him maybe not.  

I did feel bad enough I took a cab home so the money for today's ride got spent yesterday, which, long story short, means I need to take the bus home tonight.  But I just put $20 value on my bus card and I have lots of candy for distribution so it should be interesting.  

I am also bringing my big coat as I did not like the wind level this morning when I was lying in bed. So I just have to get through today, see my (female) friend today too which is always fun, go home on the bus, hand out some candy, pray for everyone, and start my weekend.  

I did laundry the other night so I don't have much to do today.  

That's it for now.  

Thursday morning

 I don't know if I mentioned it last night but a male employee got in trouble for talking to me. 

I think what flipped the switch for him he is not "native" and I took the time to learn how to say his name, he was impressed. I am"nice"he is "nice" we hit it off so we chat now and then,  a very light flirtation.  The most serious it got when I gave him some candy a few days ago and he said "You make my life sweet". So very innocent and harmless. 

He came over on his break to chat and my boss was having a bad day and let him have it!  He ran out of there like he got scalded!  I felt bad for him. 

There is another guy higher up the food chain we talk a little about horror movies now and then. Dad was a big fan and I used to watch a lot.  I am going to ask him about "Pitch Black" the next time I see him as I consider that right up there with Aliens as a good horror movie. 

Interestingly enough both guys are Latino it's a good thing I was already working on my Spanish.  I mean it's just common sense. I never had babies, but the Latino lady next door had 6.  Easy to do the math.  I have given up on the immigration thing it is way too late to fix now, better learn Spanish wherever you are.  

The cats are good but I woke up with a horrific headache. I managed to take some Excedrin, take a nice hot shower, take my antidepressant and allergy pill (neither is optional!). I need to make up a lunch but that's it. 

I am also working on my budget.  I need to pay the credit card, utilities, and I would like to give some money to World Missionary Press as well. 

There's Biscuit!  What a good boy. I figured out a while ago his Spanish name is "Galleta" (cookie).  So I think of him that way sometimes.  And Cleo would be "Pica" as she is spicy at the vet. I don't have a Spanish name for Spotty yet. 

I ride the bus home tonight. 

Oh and I tried out my "old" menstrual cup this week and it was very uncomfortable compared to the "new" $3 one I had bought off Amazon so I retired it and will just use the new one. I like it better anyway. I had my last cycle - if you can consider literally one spot of blood a day for 3 days a cycle - about a month ago. 

It's going to rain tonight but not for my commute.  That's it for now. 

Wednesday or LOOK WHERE YOU SIT

 Well I found there is something worse than some random man following me home.  

Work was uneventful.  I talked to Jack and he will pick me up early Monday, we will go to the donut shop and get donuts for work. We sell donuts at work but donut shop is better. And it is a small business I like to support small business.  Having been one, I will always have a soft spot for the small businessman.  

Work was fine, very busy.  I drank some diet Dew to get me through. Everyone was complaining (not me). I scored a nice cobalt blue t shirt on clearance or $3, it is a good brand (Free Assembly) and my size. 

I didn't encounter anything icky at work but someone "had a blowout" on a bus seat, the bus was packed and no one would sit there except for a few hasty souls.  They always sat too fast for me to warn them.  One woman put her purse in it. So no surprise for you to hear I washed all my outer clothes, including today's t shirt, the minute I got home, and I used my laundry sanitizer too.  I kept wondering what I was sitting in that I couldn't see.  

But YUCK.  What is it this week?  Poop week?  No one told me. Thank God I am getting in the habit of actually looking at all seats now. 

Oh I also found a 5 pound sack of Pinata mix which is a good thing as I'm getting low. I didn't find any other good, hard, assorted, candy though.  So the rest will have to wait until I get to the other store. Lots of fun lugging that home.  

Ride home was pretty uneventful. On my way home a woman got on 3 stops before mine.  She had greasy hair, no bra, very large breasts with prominent nipples, and tight black pants. She was white, carried a dirty backpack. She probably has some sort of housing but I would classify her as homeless. It was also apparent she was manic. 

I have had bus drivers tell me they don't usually mind if someone can't pay, as long as they say 'I don't have it" or "I'm sorry can I get a ride today?" something like that. But most of them just get on and sit down without paying and the drivers don't like that.  I don't like that.  I pay for my bus ride and I have 2 disabilities. 

So this woman did not pay and got off at the stop before mine. I don't know how she did it, but I was only about 100 yards from my house, not even that, and I saw her behind me.  I was talking to my aunt on speakerphone and I stopped and waited for her to go by, let her get ahead of me two blocks before I went to my house. 

That could have ended really badly if she had followed me up to my door and pushed in behind me. I need to pay more attention.  

I called my parents they are fine, just waiting for the clothes to finish before I go to bed. 

That's it for now. 

Wednesday morning

 So about the only notable thing the last couple days (other than Biscuit taking over my computer chair, he cries so when I try to move him) I have been bagging up candy + Scripture booklets for "just anyone" and handing them out as led on the bus including to some pretty gnarly characters on the bus. But I just hand it out, and pray, my job is to make sure I have enough candy every day.  

And my raise went through so that looks promising. 

Work has been OK. Weight is 183 this morning; I plan to take a big salad to work today for my lunch. 

I decided I am going to wear a black broomstick skirt over my St Patrick's day leggings (four leaf clovers) on the 17th.  That should satisfy the dress code. 

One woman at work is on a dating app and CONSTANTLY talking on the phone with men she meets there, is going to their places for God knows what...she is either going to get a disease or a stalker, maybe both. Exactly why I do not want to get into a dating app right now. Not to mention my phone does not have a lot of room.  But she does work while she talks so the bosses seem to be OK with it. 

I had a disgusting experience yesterday. Generally when I use the toilet at work I am in a hurry and as a result I don't give the toilet a very thorough examination. So I used one particular toilet twice yesterday and then realized, to my horror, it was dirty.  The second I got home I put my clothes in the laundry room and took a long hot shower, took some vitamin C.  I won't get into what was on the toilet but I felt it merited a "deep clean". 

The cats are good. Spotty got in bed with me last night and slept by my head, which is my favorite. Biscuit had a little trouble with that so they scuffled but Spotty came back. I reminded Biscuit the bed was big enough for everyone, at one point I had 5 cats in that bed every night. 

My family is doing well which is great, of course.  I will have enough money for rides to work every day and also a ride home Friday night both weeks AND the day Ron died (Monday).   I really don't want to spend 2 hours on the bus that day. I am going to ask Jack if he would mind picking me up early Monday and running me by the donut shop to get some treats for my team. Ron would want me to celebrate the day; I'm not quite up for that but I can bring donuts "just because". I don't think anyone would eat them if they knew why I brought them. So I won't say.  

That's it for now.