Saturday Morning

 So the lab has a portal now instead of sending me an email?  We will see how that works. They did say they would fax results to my doc which I am happy about. So a little anxiety about the portal.  But the girl did say something they would email me the results as well so I am confused. 

Nothing in my email this morning so not yet apparently, maybe Monday I'm thinking. 

I went to bed very early (7 PM) last night and slept 13 hours straight so I guess I needed it.  And I am having the oddest cycle ever, with very light spotting.  I guess I really am wrapping it up.  

Weight was up to 185 but I ate some bad things yesterday (kolaches, a piece of lemon pound cake) so I guess I shouldn't be too surprised, but I need to do menu planning for next week and wondering what I should pack in my lunches. Sweet potatoes and keto bread are higher carb, after all, but the sweet potatoes do pack a lot of nutrition/fiber/beta carotene.  I will figure it out.  

But I did sleep well and the cats were patient waiting for me to get up. Spotty was trying to molest his sister so I had to tell him 1.  Incest is bad and 2.  Rape is bad and we don't do either in my house.  I was very matter of fact with him and then he just ran off.  

I washed all my cloth pads yesterday (they absorb better after a few washes) and found this when I walked by: 

I thought it was pretty funny.  He sleeps in my underwear drawer if I leave it open and will in fact throw underwear on the floor to adjust it to his satisfaction. 😂 So it doesn't faze me.  

My mood is pretty good for a change (maybe all the sleep) so I am going to enjoy that today.  Plan is to run by a grocery store and that's it for the day.  

That's it for now. 

Friday morning

 Wow a blast from the past at the grocery store.  They were playing "Monkey" by George Michael.  It perfectly describes loving someone with addiction. 

I took a Uber to the blood test lab,got there, they had a full house.  But I had to fill out paperwork and they were done by the time I finished.  I had a VERY easy stick and she said I had "great" veins which is a new one to me.  They used to frown/scowl/grimace as they poked around my elbow.  But the needle went in painlessly and she got several vials of blood without a speck of trouble.  The cost was less than I had planned so I had enough to cover 2 ubers.  

I walked over to the Kolache factory and boy their prices went up.  I got a Uber from there to the Post Office and mailed my packages.  Then I walked to a bus stop and looped around to my grocery store, did that, came home.  Now I'm going to take a nap.  

Here is what I wore today: 

Taking a nap.  More later.  

Friday morning

 I slept great, doing laundry and changed my sheets. My parents gave me a nice set of sheets for my birthday a few years ago so I took them off the bed as my cycle may? show up sometime the next few days (although I am lacking some sure-fire indicators). So I put the boring gray patterned sheets on the bed but I had to wash the top sheet. 

Then I will take a shower and do my God Time, call a Uber and go to the blood test lab. After the lab I will likely go to the Post Office and then the grocery store.  We will see.  I haven't figured it out. Later tonight I plan to wash my (unused) cloth pads as they are more absorbent after a few washes, and put them in a drawer. I plan to wear the usual things when I am working or out of the house but this is a good option for when I am at home. And they have had tampon shortages in the past so I would rather be proficient at using these things before it gets that bad again. Just my thought process.  

Cats are good, Biscuit slept with me today.  He's a good boy. 

I forgot about the clothes in the dryer but I got them going now. I am going to wear my "thug cats" 

shirt with some jeans. Should be fun. I also plan to wear this to see my doctor, either this or the long sleeved red t shirt. Depends on the weather. 

I have some stuff in the dryer so I am getting that done quick before the washer finishes.  

Now I have today pretty much done up but thinking what I want to do for the next couple days.  One day I want to go out in the garage and sort all my clothes by size and have that done up. They are everywhere out there now. Another day I need to do the cooking.  I will figure it out.  

I am thinking to do some sausage tonight.  

That's it for now I will post again when I get back.  

Edit, I got one of those class action lawsuit things in my email. Ron had both the hernia mesh and the clot filter and could have sued for sure on the clot filter as his broke. We knew it was broken but he didn't want it taken out as that would have meant surgery and a hospital stay. 

I asked if he wanted to sue.  He said no.  I asked if he wanted me to sue if it came loose and killed him. Interestingly enough he said no. I always thought it was interesting.  

It did not kill him, heart disease did.  Number one killer in the US.  

[Singing] My pants are falling off

 I will skip work.  You don't want to hear about work, except maybe how I hid in the fitting room when my boss was outside talking to another employee when I tried on clothes after work.  

So I got to work, did work.  For lunch I have been eating a big (3 cups greens) salad, half a sweet potato, and a sandwich on low carb bread. And I just realized I forgot to buy the low carb bread after work, damnit.  

But as I was working the last couple days I had to keep yanking up my pants again and again.  And finally today it dawned.  Hey maybe I went down a size. So, after work, I went over to apparel and found some cute size 17 jeans, tried them on and they fit great.  I did a happy dance then I heard my boss's voice.  The one people run away from when they hear her coming.  She is just - stern for lack of a better term.  I actually feel bad for her I see her as under a lot of pressure.  

So rather than interact I stayed in there. 

Then I came out and threw it all in my cart.  I had wanted skinny jeans for my doctor visit in a medium to dark wash.  They only had medium wash in a 17 so I got that and I liked it.  

Then I got some of the $5 clearance jeans in a 17. That makes a couple pair that fit well now. Let me go look. I have 3 black, the skinny medium wash, a cobalt blue, a teal (had the last 2 for a while), a light wash Mom jean, and a dark wash Mom jean.  I spent $10 last week and $20 this week. Dad sent me a "bounty" on my weight loss recently so I used the last of it tonight. Honestly speaking I don't expect to drop another size. But we'll see. 

Once I get down to 170/165 I plan to go to a maintenance eating plan.  If I lose more eating that great but not planning on it. But I plan to keep carbs below 100 grams a day. Watch calories make sure I don't go above a maintainer level. We'll see. 

Right now I am doing my usual Friday night (for me) thing and doing laundry. Jeans are in the dryer I am going to bed when they're done. 

Just for fun currently Carb Manager says about 1,600 to lose at my weight at a sedentary activity level. 

To maintain the internet says 1.900 to maintain at 165 pounds and a light activity level.  1,700 at a sedentary level.  Moderate activity, probably closest to my current level. 2,100.  I plan to keep using my tracker to watch all that. 

God love him, good old Dr Atkins and "You don't need to worry about calories" was just NOT good for my eating.  I have lost this watching my carbs and my calories. 

That's it for now.  

Thursday but really my Friday morning

 Difficult boss worked last night.  I wasn't kidding about the day shift (off at 4) literally fleeing the building.  At least I know any flack I get is not personal. She is like that with everyone.  

I am secretly hoping she has today off, I can dream.  She had Sunday off (as did I) and I know she doesn't usually get weekends to I can hope.  Her boss came by my work area last night and grinned at me when I offered him some candy so he seems to like me just fine. And I was working when he walked up.  

I met a man on my way to the back last night, a customer, looking for a scale.  We hunted all over the store for a minute and I met another associate, from another country.   She said "Broken glass" pointed, and walked off.  That is not policy.  Policy is you stay with the hazard until it is cleaned up.  You don't play hot potato and run off.  I got a broom and dustpan,got it up.  Then went back to helping the man.  Eventually found the scales he was very happy. 

Then I clocked out and left. 

Talked to my parents for a little bit and went to bed. Up and at 'em now. I kept reminding myself today is my Friday. 

I did get the money I needed out of savings so I can cover everything. I was looking at Amazon Grocery and very impressed they have sweet potato fries.  They also have a better deal on Walnuts. So I will be making a small order. 

Wool socks worked great yesterday so I will wear another pair today. No cycle yet I am thinking this might just be a "pass" month which is happening more often.  And that's fine.  I would rather be in full menopause if I do remarry. Then we don't have to get fixed. 

If I did remarry a fertile man I would have to do something drastic like tie my tubes or go off the Depakote which has a serious record of birth defects. I wouldn't want to take even a slim chance. 

But tomorrow big plan is getting the blood test. I have not had one in a few years. I am very curious to see what the diet and weight loss has done for my numbers. 

I need to take my shower. 

That's done, made my lunch and all as well. I am tired but I'm going to go do it. 

Some of my jeans are getting loose so I need to do a fashion show and see what is fitting currently and what needs to go in the garage. Then go from there trying on clothes in my "smaller" box if needed and then possibly running to the thrift shop for more clothes.  

That's it for now. 

On lunch

 Boss has been difficult all week.  First shift is literally fleeing out the door.  

We will see how the rest of the night goes.  I have another 4 hours.

Did eat a mini pecan pie before work but still OK per my fitness app.

Wednesday morning

 Slept OK last night which was great.  I won't get much sleep tonight as I get home after 8 and have to get up at 4 so I think I will do meal prep for 2 days today before work. 

Got paid that is nice.   Now I need to figure out the budget. 

Cats are good.  They want more food than usual so I think one of their other houses stopped feeding them extra.  I compromised and am giving them an extra half cup. I don't want them hungry but the food is not endless and I have to pay for it.  I also don't want them getting fatter. 

Shower time. The hand soap at work is very drying but I can't use lotion at work because I work with my hands and it takes time for the lotion to soak in. Last night I remembered to use my good lotion so my hands are in pretty good shape this morning. I need to remember to use the lotion again after I make up my lunches.  

Did the budget that is GRIM.  Problem being I have to pay for rides, utilities, groceries as always.  Also have to pay for medication refills and blood test, trip to doctor and doctor's fee.  I will have to get into savings for that not crazy about it but I need the appointment and blood test.  

It is cold and NASTY out I am glad I am getting a ride to work.  I am just wearing black jeans with a navy tshirt and a blue plaid flannel over that. I remembered to get my new blue gel insoles for my brown sneakers and put those in last night.  Those are very nice.  I had the last ones about 6 months so a pretty good run for a $5 pair of insoles.  

My weight was up to 183 this morning so I am discouraged on that and feeling like I should just go back to the diet soda.  I am really battling that.  

Since I work fewer hours today I only brought one snack for my break and then the lunch as usual. I had a sandwich for breakfast. We will see how that goes. 

I have had some gas issues at work so I brought some gas pills for that. 

Depressed today; weather doesn't help. That's it for now.