I have forgiven a lot, but I have never been able (and, yes, I know I need to) forgive: my sister told me our mother died unsaved and let me believe that for years. Do you know what that did to me? An EVANGELIST?!!
Years later she disclosed Mom had been saved, a few weeks prior to her death,"but it didn't count as it wasn't (my cult.)"
I was livid. I said nothing. Her husband is a very nice guy, utterly devoted to her. She was working as an office assistant with a psychiatrists office. She took her husband to an office party and her boss told her "It's so cool you married a guy with autism.".
She was very upset "I thought I could FIX him" (rule #1 in any relationship what you see is what you get), realized "This is it" and left him, filed for divorce.
I know no one would have made the choice I did, to stay with Ron. But he always did better when I was around. I just can't fathom that.
I don't talk about this but I was unmedicated bipolar for 14 years with Ron. He stayed.
My primary abuser growing up destroyed every photo my parents had of me. My Dad had a very hard time with that. I told my sister this. She promised, for a good 20 years, to send her copies. She did not, until a couple of months ago. I didn't respond.
She sent me a text message, some pretext about a family tree. I am not interested in being on it. Frankly our niece has a serious drug problem. I don't want her getting my personal information. No.
She said, once, it was "Her biggest dream" to get me in her cult (local church movement). She also said she wanted me to move in with her (she is a very severe hoarder) and be her full time caregiver.
That's not going to happen, either one. God has taken care of me.
No comments:
Post a Comment