"Listen to your heart"

 That was the song.  I detest it at a level I cannot convey.  

One time years before Ron died he had been on a steady track of verbal abuse, drinking heavily, using pornography (don't ask), keeping me up all night and then forcing me to go to work...let me tell you, I earned this house ..

Anyway the other vendor would go to work, and sit in a chair in his stockroom.  He played a radio that was tuned to a pop/top 40 station.  

One day I came dragging in wondering how much more I could take and mentally railing at God - I was *upset* - no doubt about it - and the radio started playing that song.  I wanted to throw the radio out the door. 

I didn't.  I played the game.  But every time I hear the song, it comes back. 

I am getting a lot done today.  The boss is happy she is leaving me alone.