The books all say you shouldn't ever reference a stalker because they get off on the fact that you thought about them for a minute. But I do pause before I begin typing and try to figure out if what I'm writing can be used against me or my loved ones in any way.
How do you term someone at work who's a snitch? Friendly, nice enough person, that's the angle, but a snitch. I have seen this person literally go running to tattle personal information told in confidence, to management. Anyway, she told me it's probably a bad idea to refer to the cats in anyway online given my issues.
It's a shame, I have adorable photos but she had a point.
So. I have had a big uptick in spiritual attacks recently. I have responded by amping up the evangelism as much as possible, but there has been fallout. I almost broke my arm, I was sick before that, my cat died (not in order), depressions, etc. When Ron was alive he would go off and attack me verbally, keep me up all night, etc. if I was doing a lot of evangelism. He was always very threatened by my relationship with Jesus to the point he would roll himself into my room and do tirades against God during my Bible study time. That's why I got in the habit of getting up early to read my Bible (he was still asleep).
That's also a huge reason I am not looking to date again. I am free of the abuse and can't go through that again.
But my loved ones suffer on occasion. It makes me wonder if it is right to even have people close to me. Pets.
I am going to think about that for a while. Should I be a good soldier going through life alone? I don't think God wants that.
Are my loved ones signing up for this? That's what keeps me up at night.
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